I wont be touched of Darkness

Let's make an icons again!!!!

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 05:15:43 GMT

After made Dir en Grey @ Manguinaria Fest's icons. I found another awesome pictures with those festival! so, so, so....

blacklaboratory

Vol. 1 from Dir en Grey @ Manguinaria Fest's icons, can found HERE

I'm so fucking EXCITED!!! XDDDD

Saki & Otogi from Awoi Fan Art

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 07:27:55 GMT

Finally I can drawing again X3 this time featuring with Saki and Otogi from Awoi band. Actually, I want made the foure members, but somehow there's no space from two more XDa so the result only Saki and Otogi..

preview:

Click the picture for the bigger size.

And this is the b/w one

what do you think? *_____*

Mao and Ruki Fan Art

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 03:03:38 GMT

hwaaa~ Mao FA is the most quickly FA I had made *_____________* maybe he's to simple lol and the Ruki's one I made for a long~ time ago, I love the fold and yeah, simple FA again XE

okay, okay, to lazy to grumble or anything, here you go~

Mao in Crimson Tear *____*V

Ruki in Taion

My chibi <3

hope you like them ^^V

new layout!

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 05:47:45 GMT

fatal_complexes fatal_complexes fatal_complexes

P.S. I need a comment ~~though it only change the header and background~~ *_*

spoiler~

Sat, 10 May 2008 04:52:21 GMT

I've got cold TAT and get headache a bit lol thanks to God, I had finished my challenge, but I'll post them next week T.Tv about Tuesday or Thursday.

I'm online in my class now, whaaaaa~

just spoiler:
[25] icons
[25] banners
[2] wallpapers

one of them you can see in my profile

Kaoru [Dir en grey] - Theme H

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 10:22:45 GMT

Yay my first work in pictured_life XD!
my first goes to...of course KAORU! for this time I only finished theme's H
and for Theme's S will be next! so...enjoy? XE

teaser :

hatred	hurt	hanging


hero	humour	hope


heartbreak	honesty	happiness


hair	hidden	holding on


hands	hot	hunger

Created with angelamaria's Icon Table Generator @ Bauble

- comment if you taking or anything, credit as always XD
- fell free to add my journal or my graphic community,

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2 walp, 3 banner + new layout

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 07:04:46 GMT

so, last night I made 2 wallpaper. it's looks simple, I known lol but I love it XD wew, more Kaoru! yes! and for banner, actually this is for my friend, he asked me to made some diru's banners, but he cancel it lol so I want to sharing with you guys! enjoy ne XDD

and yeay new layout! whoaa~~ kaoru again! enjoy enjoy XDD

WALLPAPER

1024x768

1024x768

BANNER

Happy Birthday Kaoru!

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 04:20:10 GMT

subject:
icon:
[50] kaoru
[10] an extra

banner :
[6] Kaoru
[7] FO-banner

wallpaper :
[3] kaoru

preview:

ICON

1	2	3	4	5

6	7	8	9	10

11	12	13	14	15

16	17	18	19	20

21	22	23	24	25

26	27	28	29	30

31	32	33	34	35

36	37	38	39	40

41	42	43	44	45

46	47	48	49	50

AN EXTRA

1	2	3	4	5

6	7	8	9	10

BANNER

FO-BANNER

WALLPAPER

1024x768

1024x768

1024x768

- comment if taking and credit:if use!
- DO NOT HOTLINK! read the Rules!
- DON'T claim as yours.
- Tell me if I'm not credit =]

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Dozing Green Art 2nd scanned

Mon, 04 Feb 2008 03:46:22 GMT

I'd try my best LOL guess what? I finished this art almost 1 month, whta the fuck! >.< and almost give up, but...yay, I did it!!!!!! *dance*

btw, I scanned again my draw, because the 2nd more looks like the original from my sketch book than the 1st scanned.

Edited art. Kaoru's art. ganesa's art

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 07:06:36 GMT

well, for some reason I'm obviously want edited my old pic. I think it because I must edited for my friend's art, actually for the job too LOL but, hell ya! this edited more good than the other O.O; sorry I can't showing the other, it's secret 8D and, yes! after 4 hours I made it XDDDD *dance and cries*

BEFORE

AFTER

Kaoru XDD

Ganesa *what a bad kanji LOL*

Die and Kaoru stuff!!

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 09:16:02 GMT

subject :
icon
[7] Die
[7] Kaoru
[4] DiexKaoru

banner *FO-banner*
[3] Die
[4] Kaoru
[3] DiexKaoru

wallpaper
[1] DiexKaoru

preview :

1	2	3	4
5	6	7	8
9	10	11	12
13	14	15	16
17	18

banners + FO-banners :

v

wallpaper :

credit :
pictures : seinen_no, yesternight, www.black-cat-net.de, kuvat.huumakuva.net, mindbreed.de, nakatoni
textures : ewanism, absolutetrouble

special thanks : drpaccy, potato_chippu, ryoujoku for their tutorial, thanks a lot! =]

- comment if you like them!
- do not hotlink! XD *bows*
- credit please... *puppy dog eyes* I'll appreciate that.
- and thanks to likes them!! enjoy minna-san!!! *give a hell lot of love*

special layout Die's birthday!!!

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 08:59:38 GMT

so, this is time for...

HAPPY NYAPPY BIRTHDAY DIE!!!!! >3<

aww, he's more hot and sexy!! go Die! go Die!! XDD
and to appreciate his special day, I decided to made my multiply layout full of him! yeah!!!!
well, with extra stressed and trouble and bla..bla..bla...yay, finally I made it!! the result made me melted, coz...
DIE SO FUCKING HOT!!!! XDDD~~

TEASER!!!!!

here's the result

my personal multiply XD

and here's the other's one, my group in multiply =]

click the picture to full view!

The Game Of Love or Love The Game – Chap 2 : Let See, What Is It Under His Skirt?

Thu, 16 Aug 2007 04:28:36 GMT

Title : The Game Of Love or Love The Game – Chap 2 : Let See, What Is It Under His Skirt?
Author : fatal_complexes
Rating : PG [ for now ]
Pairing : Die x Kaoru
Disclaimer : they in my bed, naked, kiss each other!!whakakak!!! just my imagination actually ... well I don’t own both of them..*cries*
Summary : another high school-fic!! Kyo, Toshiya and Shinya have a game and the victim is... Kaoru! He must take the game if he wants a lovely expensive guitar for the prize. How about Die? Well, he’s a handsome and young teacher in they school. It’s not a big game actually, but the rules actually make it hard!!

Comment : my comment only...I couldn’t stop smile when I wrote this chapter!! Gods, I love this chapter!!! Won’t say again, just enjoy this chapter... =]

chapter one

Chapter 2 : Let See, What Is It Under His Skirt?

Kaoru walked away to his classroom. His face looks pissed off when all student stare at him, or his appearance, for exactly. “What the fucking hell you looking at?” he yelled when his gaze meet with the other. the other boy only shook his head and then leave Kaoru’s ‘God Of Death Eyes’. For this morning Kaoru really have bad mood. Of course for one reason!

“good morning KaoKao!” he recognize that voice, the taller boy, Toshiya. The deep brown-haired boy hugs him from Kaoru’s back, without hesitation and it makes Kaoru more pissed.

”get off your hand!!!” Kaoru warn Toshiya when his left hand starts around Kaoru’s waist.

The taller boy only smiles and pulls back his hand from the other waist. he make a swift movement to the right side of Kaoru, walk in his side. his smile still action on his lips. “what a nice day, isn’t it?” he turned his gaze to the other.

“I don’t feel like that!” his voice audible unfriendly manner. Sudden,

“why you so pissed?” Toshiya stopped his step when Kaoru speed up his step. Tentatively, his gaze focused to Kaoru who was walk in front of him and then turned down to his skirt. Enjoy the other’s white thighs, his walks and his little butt behind the skirt. So wonderful... made Toshiya licking his bottom lips for second.

“because of you!” Kaoru stopped, turned his body and staring at his friend who stood up behind him. Still on bad mood. “what the hell are you looking at???” he yelled again, broke the taller boy’s fantasy. Toshiya’s gaze meets with his own, full off angry tension in the air.

Toshiya didn’t care about his gaze, just smile widened with extra teasing eye; “are you wearing... boxer, hot underwear or...thong?” the stupid question flows from the taller boy. He was obvious to want to know what Kaoru wear under his skirt was.

Kaoru’s eyes grow wider, felt more and more and more pissed off, even worst if someone could see into his ‘God Of The Death Eyes’. “TOTCHI, YOU’RE MANIAC!!!” he screams out to the taller boy, made him awake from his fantasy again.

”you teased him Totchi?” the blonde-haired boy asked. His voice almost whispered. The lesson was running for 30 minutes. Kyo rolled his eyes, trying to find Kaoru’s face and the brown long-haired boy looks on the worst mood. Nevertheless, He was still cute with dressed in his uniform and his glasses, lay in the brown long-haired boy’s nose and his ears. Emphasize his feminine side. “do my sound like horny or gay that...He’s looks so cute?” Kyo added, without averting his gaze from Kaoru.

“he’s really fucking cute and hot...” Toshiya answer quickly, in lower volume. His head inclined to Kyo’s back, make sure that his voice only could hear by himself and the other. “this morning I asked him...did he wear boxer, hot underwear or even thong...and he called me maniac!”

The smaller boy a little bit shocked. He turned his face to see Toshiya’s face. A bit pole ness in his calm, “that’s fucking question make sure you’re a MANIAC!” Kyo chuckled a bit.

This time was English lesson, Die’s time. Kaoru’s seat in a center of class, made him become to cynosure for whole of class. The most advantage to see a full view of Kaoru is the blonde’s seat, on right side Kaoru and it was in his left side too. Kyo even didn’t deny when sometime his gaze stopped in Kaoru’s seat, in his body actually. Inhaled and keep conscious that was only Kaoru dressed like a girl, just for their stupid game!

It was boring time from Kaoru. he insert his pen between his fingers. Let his head leaned in his right palm, attention all of lesson from his sensei. but, his mind not focusing to the lesson which Die had explained. just thinking to all fucking eyes stare at him, look at entirely body and more to his lower part, on his skirt. Liked Toshiya did this morning, maybe he saw it now! Kaoru had known that and it so bothered him. Like a sugar full of ant, when you see it then...you want it too! The brown long-haired boy decided to ignore their gaze.

‘God dammit Totchi! I will kill you first...’

Kaoru made slowly movement touched his nape under his black hair. He definitely could some noise like ‘aah...’ or that sound came inside his head. His mood really bad, even worst until he didn’t realize that his mouth said, “suck!” he murmured but his sound good enough to be heard by his sensei.

”Niikura...” the red-haired man speak, turned his body to look at Kaoru. his voice make the other boy surprised.

Kaoru trying to remember what was for exactly he said, “did I say something sensei...?” he asks with polite manner, wishes he will not get a punishment from him.

”you didn’t listen my lesson?” that question made the brown-haired boy know what was he said before.

“No! I mean...”

”come forward, please!” Die plea with harshly, “make one sentence with this grammar!” he added when his right hand knock out to the clipboard with calk inside his hand.

After clearer his throat, one deep breath following Kaoru, “alright, sensei…” he replied then he stood up from his seat and the brown-haired boy could guess, all of eyes look at him. Staring every inch his movement, gently Kaoru goes to front of class. Took a chalk in his sensei and start to write his sentences.

‘I hate this...’

Kaoru felt uncomfortable when he standing in front of class, particularly because it was made him more cynosures. Giving a full of view the brown long-haired boy’s back. His black hair fallen freely in his back to his hip. The small waist stand out from his body and his pale slim legs looks beautiful. And His skirt following Kaoru’s move, added his fascination. Free service. It was become all fantasy for boys in that class, anyways.

One sentence has finished, Kaoru look at his job. Trying correctly if there was some mistake in his sentences till his chalk falling down from his hand, make some noise. Spontaneous, bow his body to take the chalk. Giving more service when his skirt lifted and expose his little butt. Almost boys turned down their head a bit. Obvious to want see behind Kaoru’s skirt and his little butt. Even Toshiya fallen from his seat, made some noise. But there’s no even also mind him. Toshiya hurried up back to his seat when his eyes meet with the red head. they couldn’t averted their gaze from Kaoru. it was like once in a lifetime, anyways. Too bad to passes. And if someone could read their face, they said;

“more high...more high...”

“show it! Show it!”

“it’s almost there...”

“fuck! Come on! there’s would be a good thing...”

“yes, Finally! So there is...”

“huh...?” that sound come from whole of class when they eyes locked at Kaoru. the brown long-haired boy stood up again. He turned his body, could see disappointment in their face. Kaoru even knows what were they had been think and what they seen!

”so... he wearing boxer...that’s pretty good.” only those sentences come out from the blonde’s mouth.

“I think he wear hot underwear...” Toshiya continue Kyo’s reaction. He really disappointed when know Kaoru didn’t wear another underwear. “shit, that boxer really unnecessary thing!!”

”what all of you grip?” the red head yelled, make all student turned down their head, back to their note book. “you could back to your seat Niikura.” Die attempt to look quietly, although for a few second he couldn’t deny that he was enjoyed that moment.

Kaoru back to his seat. And his face more worst now. It could felt by his friends. “he will kill us...”Shinya whispered to the other boy who seat in his right side. Kaoru face looks like God of the Death for now...that was mean...more worst!!!

“I guess...” Toshiya replied. his voice audible stiff in his mouth. And the blonde...just shut his mouth and his eyes, not dare to stare at Kaoru.

‘I will kill them, I will slice every inch their body, mutilation, drink they blood...throw them...let them dying slowly...feel suffer...’ that was in Kaoru thinking about now. Terrible.

“what do you want! lift my skirt! see my boxer!!! Even want fuck me!!!” Kaoru exclaim in front of his friends, they were stay in their class. His friend could felt a bad, bad, bad tension around their air. They saw Kaoru looks like he want take their souls and put into the deeper hell.

“err...KaoKao...relax please...” asked Shinya, trying make Kaoru calm down.

”remember...two Ganesa’s guitars...” Toshiya added with have cold feet in his voice.

”we didn’t mean that, only...hmm...fascinated for a while...” the blonde head trying to make it better, but NOT for Kaoru. his self was still angry with that occurrence. Feels like want tearing them, right now! If he didn’t remember what will he get from that fucking stupid game!

”Alright! I’ll get that! I must stay in this fucking stupid game, even I really want to kill you guys!! I’m pretty sure to do that!!” the brown long-haired boy couldn’t make his self calm down. His breath still irregularly and get a little headache. “shit! Likely I’ll puke!!” he added, his hand touched his calm behind the brown bangs.

“he? KaoKao are you okay? please forgive us!!!” suddenly Kyo felt worried about his friend.

“I’m fine...just now I had very bad mood...” Kaoru try to control his angry and arrange his breath. Take one deep breath.

“But... it was made we pretty enough to asking about our sexuality...” it was come from Toshiya mouth. Kaoru kept quiet even shock, Kyo and Shinya did too. They gaze look at the taller boy, stupid Toshiya. Damn, Kyo must have to remembering Toshiya again, how horrified when Kaoru get his fucking ‘angry mode on’, really...it’s mean worst!

“Totchi...I’ll kill you first!!!”

Kaoru speed his footsteps to the restroom. ‘gah!I need to piss!!’. The brown long head open the door harshly. when he come in to restroom, his glance spotted the red head, his sensei. ‘damn...what the hell he’s doing in here??” it was a silly question, of course did what you want to do too!!

The red-haired sensei looked at Kaoru in mirror, he was washing his hand. Wordless, only sounds of water run out from faucet. “what is it?” Die asked with surprise. Now, he’s drying his hands.

Kaoru biting his lower lip, “I...need to...errr...” his hand trying to keep his passion for get a piss. The brown long haired boy felt was not balmy if the red-haired sensei standing there, look at him when he get to piss.

“what? We’re all men here...I thought you men...”Die grinned. Made Kaoru blushing into the red color.

“am I!!” Kaoru answered quickly.

“so what’s the problem?” The red head pretense didn’t know what Kaoru mean was. He definitely trying teases him longer. He liked when he teased the other boy.

”just...feel uncomfortable...” his sound almost disappear in the end and he still standing in place initially. Just for moment again. Just for moment again. If someone could read Kaoru’s face.

“you said that you feel comfort with that skirt and the problem...”Die turned down his face, looking for Kaoru’s gaze.

”senseis...don’t make some debating with me...” Koaru plea, his face still burning.

The red head looking at his student, maybe it was good enough to tease him. Then he walk, approach the brown long-haired. “I think it’s wrong place for you...” he smirked when he stood beside Kaoru then give him some winked from his eye. Finally he leaves Kaoru alone in restroom.

Kaoru’s body fallen down to the floor, gentle. still burning in his face. “I hate this day!!” he grumble to his self. Kaoru stood up again, because he couldn’t ignore his passion to get fucking piss. Sudden, he felt strange feeling in his head, when his hand touched the skirt. “shit! I’m forgetting! I have no zipper in this fucking skirt!!” he murmured again. Tentatively lifted his skirt with gentle, reach his boxer and releasing his piss, “weird...” he say.

“maybe I should sit...”

Kaoru buried his face in his hands when the school was over. Let all students leave the classroom. leave his mind. “not yet go home?” the blonde head asked from his side. He lean his elbow in chair arm, staring at the other.

”it’s feeling nice if all have gone home...” he murmured. his face still buried in to his desk.

Shinya move his seat next of Kaoru, caress the other head with gentle. “forgive us... it was felt that we became a bad friends...” the brown taller boy trying to make Kaoru more calm.

“It was...” Kaoru answered instantly.

”sorry KaoKao... we just shock look at you, that you so...err...forgiveness for once more, the most cute and hot guy in this school...” Toshiya pull his seat in Kaoru's right side.

the brown long-haired boy lifted his head, staring at Toshiya, “don’t start Totchi...” he speak slowly. Then he rests his back to his chair, folding his legs and takes a deep breath, moaning softly. It was made his friends stop breathing, anyways.

“see...even now I want touch you...” Toshiya bowed his head, the others agree with him. Not for touch him, but obviously agree that Kaoru could stop their heartbeat for a second.

“horny, maniac, pervert, otaku, shotacon, sukebe!!” Kaoru throw it to the taller boy, with tone jokes, though his face looks serious.

”what? I’m not sukebe!!” the taller boy protests the he cross his hand in his chest. Couldn’t accept what was the other said. “maybe...I’m pretty horny and maniac...and what you mean with shotacon? Your age same with me KaoKao.” he continue, with innocent face. Their laughing, teasing each other, jeering. Make the tension felt warm and comfort, for Kaoru especially. He even teased his friend, as a joke of course. “aw,KaoKao I want eat you!!” Toshiya smirked at brown-black head in his side, winked his eyes.

”so...you wearing boxer?” the blonde head interrupt, rest his chin in his arm. Stare at Kaoru.

“well...I have no hot underwear and thong actually! you want buy for me one?” Kaoru ask.

Kyo chuckled a bit then laugh at the other,”if you want so badly ...” Kyo answer, made his friend laughs louder. ”I’m seriously!!” he added with his serious face.

“yeah, in your dream Kyo!!” the brown-long haired boy couldn’t sop his laughs.

It was felt friendly if Kaoru look at his friends, at their eyes. Laugh together, spent the time only with his friend. Their were his best friends, always. Maybe sometime they could be made him pissed or angry. But Kaoru thanks to God he has amazing friends. Thought that the brown head, the one and only with different status social or background. That wasn’t bothered him, either with the others. Even it was some of point plus from Kaoru. it was about felt comfortable and respect each other.

“see you tomorrow KaoKao!!” Toshiya speak loud.

“see you then...” Kaoru flourish his hand to his friends. The black elegant car starts to accelerate again. Leave his apartment then disappear from his gaze. The softly wind touched Kaoru’s body, make him pretty trembling. He put his hand to the pocket from his black jacket. “shit, this skirt will make me sick!!” he murmured to his self. Then he decided to come into his lovely apartment.

Kaoru walks hurried and breathing pant. His black cloak covered his chilled neck. Then he stopped his footsteps in front of a music store. his mocha-eyes widened when his gaze look at his lovely guitar, he obvious want that guitar. He put his hand in display window and one huge smile formed in his little lips. ‘I wll get you...’

”hm, I want that one...” sudden, some voices audible in his left side. Kaoru could recognize that voice. He turned his head to the left. The taller man with brightly red hair was standing in his side. His smile never fades away from his lips.

“sensei...”the other boy little bit surprise.

”it’s a coincidence could meet in place like this…” he answer. His gaze turns down to lower part of his student, “you don’t wear your skirt?” Die grinned.

“ne...I’m normal guy!!” the brown long-hair yelled with pole ness in his calm. The other man only chuckled when he heard that answered. His gaze rolled back at the red guitar, precisely side Kaoru’s guitar. “So, sensei want buy some guitar too?” he start the conversation, without averting his gaze from the black guitar one. “I want that guitar so badly!” his voice audible like obsession. Made the red head chuckled to his student. “I will get it!!” he added with extra smile.

the older man kept quiet, staring at his guitar, “I also will get it...someday...” his voice almost whispered in the end.

”hm, that intention is needed...” Kaoru speak instantly. His gaze still locked to that guitar.

The red-haired man stare to his student, “are you hungry?” he ask. The other boy looks at him, biting his lower lip. Only little ‘hm’ comes out from his mouth. “Come on, it’s for request forgiveness. I’m felt guilty about a little incident in my class...” he honestly to say apologize.

“I’m pretty sure that I ought to apologize, anyways...”

“just call me Die...okay. I’m feeling old if you said ‘sensei’ “Die grinned. just want made his student not awkward with his self.

“you’re older! It was true from me!” Kaoru chuckled a bit.

A eatery for ramen, not too big place, but nice and balmy. The floor made from high quality wood. And the atmosphere very friendly, that was point plus for this place. “konnichiwa Yamamura-san!” The brown long-haired boy greeted the older man with friendly. He’s pretty tall, chubby with warmly smile never gone in his lips. Address all his customers.

”welcome my son!” he answers with strong voice. The brown long-haired boy was his devote customer. Kaoru was very fancy to his ramen, the best in town! And he loves the atmosphere, like at home. It was made him come back again and again, never be boring. “where’s your friends?” Yamamura-san asks courteously. His hands look very busy, made all ramen which ordered by the customers.

”I’m not with them...” he answers with smile in his lips, then he take a seat in wood table. Around Yamamura-san space to made the ramen. “and, he’s my sensei...his name Andou Daisuke...” Kaoru introduced the older man.

Yamamura-san could smile between his jobs to make ramen and still have time to address the red head, “nice to meet you Andou-sensei!” his voice audible friendly.

”just call me Die and nice to meet you too Yamamura-san!” Die reply. His eyes felt amazedly of man in front of him. Friendly owner, if he could describe Yamamura-san.

”so, what will you order?” he asks. “I suggest order the special ramen for the beginner...” his gaze turned to the red-haired man, seat beside Kaoru.

”If that so. I want order two ramen!” Die reply.

“safe to enjoy!” the mobile hands immediately put the fresh ramen in front of Kaoru and Die.

Kaoru looks happy. He took the chopstick. “itadakimasu!” The brown long-haired boy took a big mouthful his ramen, chewing with full happiness in his face. Made the red head chuckled and smiled, for a hundred times. Die enjoyed his ramen, he told to Yamamura-san that his ramen so delicious. Both of them enjoying with their ramen and without said anything.

“lost to week again there will be school festival...” finally Die decided to made some conversation, just broke the silence between them.

”yup, and without asking my permission, whole class decides made me as executor chief!” Kaoru grumble without averting his eyes from his bowl.

the red head eyes look at Kaoru, his ramen in his bowl had vanished into his stomach. “hm, my first festival...” he said with another smile.

Kaoru finishing one last mouthful his ramen, he did too with the gravy. “ah, sensei newly teach in school for some last month...” the brown long-haired boy talking.

“Die...please...” he plea again. “yes, and how about last year? I think it’s your last festival, am I right?” he continued.

the other boy nodded, then he recollecting school festival for last year. “Success, a lot of people and for that time Kyo was the executor chief. Toshiya and Shinya not yet class with me, but we had as friends since us going to school.”

”well, what was your class made?” Die asked with curiously sound. At the same time he looks at Kaoru who still remembered the festival.

”our class made a spectre house. Only that was Kyo thought. But still success, remembered that Kyo was truly made almost everybody fear and scream out with his ‘brilliant-freaky out-crazy’ idea and concept.” Kaoru paused a while for got some ocha. “in final of festival, there’s always hanabi, every years. Except if rainy day. Sensei knows...” he paused. now his eyes widened and looks sparkling, stare at his sensei.

“Die...”

“in hanabi last year, we all gathered. Totchi brought some can of soda and we made cheers. I could still remember, that was for our friendship and brotherhood!!” his voice full of emotional when he remembered that night. “and now we could one class. I known Kyo was arrange it, felt great, anyways! Though I’m the only one has different status with them. Nevertheless... there was no problem; we didn’t care about the status or our background. We’re four had like a brother, wasn’t true that was very great?”

the red head still felt amazed when he heard that story, look every reaction from his student. And his big mocha-eyes couldn’t stop sparkling. In his voice, Die could felt that day will never be forgotten. “sound like a wonderful day, huh?” he speak lower.

Kaoru stop talking, stare at his sensei. Make a big smile in his lips. “that was the perfect day...” he reply. “and I wish this year could be like last year, or maybe much better...” he added and start to imagine, like what this festival could be?

“I can’t wait for my first festival...”

Kaoru stood in front of his big mirror. Dressing all his uniform and tied up his hair as usual. Maybe in another school, his long hair will be had a problem. But in this school, every student freed about their hair. Could it be short, long, even colored! And the brown-haired boy loves his long hair. Brown in above his head to his neck then black till his hip. The boy stare at his self for a moment, look to his appearance. “and now...I want fuck my self!!” he said to his self in the mirror. After that he took his jacket and his school-bag. Go to school at early time, trying not to be late again. He put his feet on his black shoe, and then he leaves his apartment.

In school. before he could in to his class, Kaoru was blocked by another boy. He has a tall posture with black hair, hefty and pretty handsome for age like Kaoru. he came from another class. Kaoru could see his blushing face when he bowed his body. “I like you!!” he said, pretty loud to be heard for next step from them. Then he lifted his head again, looking replied from Kaoru.

The brown long-haired boy stares at him with unfriendly. no expression in his face when the other boy expressing his like to Kaoru. “shut up your mouth and get out from my way! I don’t like you, even know you!!” he replies with harshly and to the point. Broke the other heart.

”you...don’t even thinking it first?” he asked with surprised in his voice. Shock because the other said.

the other boy hauling breath, “that’s my answer, for God’s sake!” Kaoru replied without hesitate.

“shit!!” then he leave Kaoru with angry and pissed.

“that was the third...” he said in his head, then continue his walk to his classroom.

”KaoKao!!” Toshiya voice greeted him when he comes to the class. His friend almost filled the class, seat in their desk. Some student talking with their friends and some of them copied the other boy’s homework. That was routine.

Kaoru put his bag above his desk then stare at his friends, “and...what was me passed for this morning?” he asked after he had greet to his friends.

”it was about a festival. Our class had decided!” the blonde head replied instantly.

”that’s looks good, lightening my work, anyways. So, what will our class make?” he asked with curious. He cross his hand in his chest and leaned his butt in the edge of desk.

“Cafeteria...” Shinya replied briefly.

”cafeteria?” he repeated. “good, and...” he paused, give intonation to his question for exactly. Want to know the detail for it.

”the waiters dressing like a girl...” Shinya continue.

Kaoru’s face stuck, his smile fades away slowly and change for surprised, ”and who’s the fucking waiter?” his mind tentatively to guess who will come as a waiter and dressing like a girl for the festival.

”you, Shinya, Uruha and Kei...” sudden, Mao, the other boy speak behind Kaoru’s back. Make the executor chief shock.

”WHAT?? Me too?? Hell no!!” Kaoru yelled. Turned his body and staring to Mao with unbelievable expression.

”because you gave the idea...” now it comes from Kei.

the executor chief rolled back his eyes, look at his friends, “you guys...”

”hey, you had a deal, and it’s out of our hands!! Not in our plain!” Kyo try advocating his self. “maybe for a little...” he shrugged.

Kaoru known that, he was agreed to following their stupid game. But why it’s must be him? “well, I’ll be a waiter too and you only to be as a host, just greeting...not big problem.” The taller boy added.

the other hauling his breath again, “okay, I’ll get it! Gods, I was trapped by you guys. there’s not problem if I become as a host. Then... I accept your freaky idea!” he answered. “happy??"

”yoroshiku!!” whole class yells with enthusiastic. Kaoru thinking again, why they so enthusiastic to made that silly cafeteria? Particularly his self become victim again from his friends. His mind thinks something about something behind their plain. What if his friends ordering hi to dress with odd costume or for worst,,, he even didn’t know what was they thinking!!!

for tomorrow, it will be very busy day for their class.

Lunch time.

”alright... this week I had three statement ‘I like you’, there’s mean...I will immediately have my first guitar?” he asked with sparkling eyes.

”not yet...” Kyo answer without expression, “you even didn’t know them! How come they will truly love you?” he continued, chewing his meal.

Kaoru stare at the blonde head that had a noodle for his lunch with odd face. “you told me if someone...”

“fall in love KaoKao...not just say ‘I love you’...” Kyo replied quickly.

”that’s mean...the man must truly like you or more precisely LOVE you...” Shinya added. The other boy turned his eyes to him. “this game not as easy as your head thinking, don’t you?” he asked.

”I don’t know... just you guys looks like play with me...” Kaoru bowed his head, “and...how come I make someone, a MAN likes me. I mean really LOVE ME?” Kaoru continued his sentence.

“well...we’ll find out...” the blonde head replied.

Kaoru quiet, so with the others. Enjoy their lunch time. Quietly from their table, but in another table, they could hear another conversation. Especially about Kaoru, though it was vaguely. The topic likes: what is it under his skirt?

“hm, I want to know that too...” Toshiya interrupted when his eyes looking at Kaoru.

“but we already know what was THAT!” the blonde-haired boy answer and remember what was it under Kaoru’s skirt. nice thighs but pretty bad about his boxer, so unnecessary.

“shut up your fucking mouth!” the other boy felt bothered. He trying to ignore them and continued his lunch.

Then another argues, it was definitely made Kaoru’s face turn on red light, “he’s really cute! Fuck, more that girl!!”

”that was definitely true!!” his friends said together. nod their head for sign of agree.

”could you guys, shut up your big mouth!!” Kaoru grumble, his face still burning. Actually he felt a bit happy when someone called him ‘cute’.

“I want fuck him once...I think it will be wild sex!” It was heard, even vaguely. Kaoru’s face start to change to his ‘angry mode on’ and his hand broke the chopstick. He tried to ignoring that unpleasant thing. Not listen. Not listen.

“could you imagine, pumping him up and down? Scream out in a fucking bliss, I’m assuring he will be nice slut!”

“err...I want that too...” Toshiya speak slowly. His face looks fear. Then He know, he was said something even worst to Kaoru. Toshiya want took back his word. “but I’m not...” he paused. It was late...

Kaoru stood up from his seat, approached their table with slowly movement. First poke his shoulder gentle and when the other turned his head, Kaoru punch him in his cheek, he fallen down to the floor. That will leave some bruise for tomorrow. “HELL NO!!! AND DONT DISTURB ME, OKAY!!!!!” he scream out! His voice could be heard in whole of canteen.

“fuck!! What are you doing??” the boy asked harshly, his lips a bit bleeding.

“don’t even dare said that again!! For next I’ll make your fucking body full of bruises!!” he menace for assure.

“you’re slut!” the other boy stood up. He floating his punch to Kaoru, but Toshiya had hit him first. Fall down again. His friends didn’t dare to against Toshiya, they known who is he and won’t make some trouble with him.

“if you touch him...I’ll make you suffer!” the taller boy yelled. And the other boy shut up his mouth, his friend helped him to stood up and leave from Kaoru and Toshiya.

Wordless, Kaoru back to his seat and Toshiya behind him. The blonde head only grinned when he looked at the taller boy, “nice show off...” he said and gave his hand to Toshiya, made a toss.

“thanks!”

”KaoKao...you made us heart attack...” Shinya said slowly, “whole of canteen I think...”he added when he felt full tension in the air and no one could speak loudly, only whispered each other.

”nicely if so!!” he answers harshly and continues his lunch time.

“you’re really ‘God of the death’ KaoKao, even in that dress...” Kyo chuckled, that was made him shocked. Kaoru will be Kaoru, although with different clothes.

“just shut up!!” he replied.

- end of chapter -

P.S. : sorry for my bad English T^T

The Game Of Love or Love The Game - chap 1 : The Game and The Rules

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 03:47:03 GMT

Title : The Game Of Love or Love The Game - chap 1 : The Game and The Rules
Author : fatal_complexes
Rating : PG [ for now ]
Pairing : Die x Kaoru
Disclaimer : they in my bed, naked, kiss each other!! whakakak!!! Just my imagination actually ... well I don’t own both of them...*cries*
Summary : another high school-fic!! Kyo, Toshiya and Shinya have a game and the victim is... Kaoru! He must take the game if he wants a lovely expensive guitar for the prize. How about Die? Well, he’s a handsome and young teacher in they school. It’s not a big game actually, but the rules actually make it hard!!

Notes : hwaaa~~~what the hell I’m thinking about this story?? I’m feel pervert when I got this stupid idea!! Never mind...--; by the way some fan-fiction inspired this story too and I hope it will be a good story. And it’s the first time I wrote the story with full of English, seriously!! I hope my sentence well enough for you all, I’m still learning XD enjoy minna-san...

Chapter 1 : The Game and The Rules

Two big mocha-eyes staring at music store. Without averted his gaze from one ESP’s guitar with Ganesa model. Black-elegant-expensive guitar. It was too expensive for a student. “609,000 Yen, yeah right!! I must steal it not to buy it!!” he murmured to his self, and then the brown-haired boy left from display window, inhaled. Imagine that someday he could own it.

-

“What? You guys will give me that guitar!” his eyes widened and sparkling when three his friends told that they will give Kaoru one ESP’s guitar, the Ganesa one. He’s really wishing could’ve one.

“Yup. One guitar, Ganesa model...” the blonde-haired boy added. “But...” he lifts his head, looking to Kaoru who so interesting with that statement. “You must following the game which we give to you…”

“ne...A game?” there was surprised sound behind Kaoru’s question, he stare at the others, seat in front of him, looking into their face one by one.

“Right! It’s the game with guitar Ganesa become the prize!!” the taller young boy interrupt, “special for you!!” he’s sound looks excited when he took a slice cake into his mouth, chewing it.

“Special...for me?” Kaoru repeated, the others only nodded their head. “So...how it’s game? You’re really will give me that guitar, are you?” Kaoru asking for certainty from them, he knows he couldn’t buy that guitar; meanwhile his friends could buy all guitars in the store. They parents has a lot money, it mean A LOT. They are some people who had big company in business world. And Kaoru just ordinary person. Life sufficiently.

“Of course!! It’s not a joke!!” Kyo chuckled a bit when his friend said that. “Actually we could give you that guitar for free, but...”

“Will not draw if there isn’t must be fought for…” now the brown-bright head talking. Tall, thin and low profile.

“Alright...and what the kind of a game I must to do?” Kaoru asked. He was a little bit nervous and worries, audible from his sounds. In the same time he was felt excited and deadly happy, heard the prize that he will get.

“Here’s the game!!” Kyo start explained, beforehand he ordered Shinya to took something in brown bag which intend them bring to Kaoru’s apartment. Not to big, but couldn’t told small bag.

A school uniform, long white shirt with creamy mesh vest, there was some school logo on the left side when Kaoru look at Shinya showed that uniform. “Okay, that’s our uniform, so far so good…” Kaoru feel not worry little even also.

“Shin, showing the other one...” Kyo stare at the brown-bright head boy. He takes out the other stuff from the bag. Kaoru only spotted something with the square motif, like they uniform trousers. Then Kaoru realize that was a mini skirt, like tartar skirt. Mostly schoolgirl wears it.

“And for what that skirt...?” sudden, Kaoru felt unpleasant sense when he looks that skirt. So short, maybe that’s only covered half from his thigh, if the brown head wear it. Now he felt worry about the next.

“You must wear it!!” the other deep brown-haired exclaiming, his bangs covered in the right side of his face.

“I must WHAT...Totchi?!?!” the sound almost screaming when the other look at Toshiya, shocking.

“You must wear it for a month, that’s not to be hard Kao...” now Kyo talking, his gaze found Kaoru’s face still shock, even looks angry.

“bu...but...okay. The uniform not being trouble, but...that mini skirt...”

“hello!! You want that guitar, right?” Toshiya interrupt, Kaoru only gave little nod from his head. “It’s not a hard game; only wear it for a month, right Kyo?” Totchi turned his head to the blonde head, and he just nodded for the answer.

Kaoru’s eyes got wider, “wh...WHAT!! I must wearing that’s fucking skirt for a month!!” again, the others only answer with nodded they head, enjoying their hot-chocolate. Cruel reaction for the brown-haired boy.

“C’mon Kaoru!! It’s only wear mini skirt for a month and you will get your lovely guitar!!” Kyo try force him to make Kaoru following the game.

The brown-haired boy silence for a moment, thinking hardly. His gaze only focuses to the skirt for a few times. Then he imagines his self with a lovely guitar. Now his eyes stare at the small blonde, “I’m only wearing that skirt for a month, alright?” Kyo nodded, “then I could get that guitar...” Kaoru continue his sentence.

“yup!!” Kyo answer instantly.

“and you will have one more if you want following our rules...” Toshiya drink his chocolate, made the mocha-eyes more widened and more sparkling if someone look closely into his eyes.

“you mean...I...I could’ve two guitars??” his voice sound unbelieving, couldn’t hide his surprised.

“yup, include with effect and amplifier, if you obviously want...” Kyo added, made Kaoru’s eyes more sparkling, almost like huge kitty eyes.

“Alright! What’s the rules for exactly!!”

-

Kyo’s eyes staring at an impatient Kaoru, he finished his chocolate before told what the kind of game and rules must be Kaoru doing to get his prize. “Rule number one, you must wear this uniform and mini skirt, deal?” his face looks serious when he told first rule. His forefinger stood up in his hand.

“Deal!” Kaoru answer quickly, without hesitation in his voice.

“Rule numbers two... don’t even dare to tell this game to someone!!”

“I’ll get it!!” Kaoru nodded, now his mind was floating, imagine at two Ganesa guitars, effect and the amplifier. He will have them all without spent his money, even for one cent! Thanks God!

“Third...” for this time Toshiya takes over, “it’s for second guitar include effect and amplifier...” the taller boy move his body, looking for comfort position in the black sofa.

“Tell me!!” Kaoru’s voice audible like an impatient kid who will get free candy.

Toshiya chuckled for a moment before he continued his explained, “oh god, Kyo... I couldn’t hold up to tell him!!” now he laughing, put his hand to his stomach which felt hurt because his laughs.

“You must tell him by your self Totchi, that’s your rule...” Kyo said without hesitate.

“What? What? C’mon tell me!!” now Kaoru felt curious and impatient to hear the next rule.

“Okay...” Toshiya take a breath for a moment, and then he stare at Kaoru’s eyes, “the third rule...” he paused, “...You must make someone fall in love with you...” then he continued.

Kaoru give not a reaction, only shocked. His jaw dropped a few inches. It’s like Toshiya’s sentence make his brain frozen. “You make him shocking Totchi...” Shinya replied, look at Kaoru, his eyes even not blinking for a few second.

Toshiya laughs more loudly, “Gods, you’re face looks so funny Kao!” he couldn’t control his laugh.

“What!!! Make someone fall in love with me?? With that skirt!!!” Finally Kaoru back to reality. His friends again only nodded their head and chuckled. Try not to laugh.

“And you must make him truly love you Kao, not just say ‘I love you because you’re so cute...’ with first kiss much better...” Kyo explained for more detail, with polite manner.

One sentence kick the brown-haired brain again, slap his self, “w...wait...HIM? You mean SHE or HER, right??” Kaoru correct the blonde-haired boy.

“Nope, I really mean HIM!!” Kyo smirked with extra grin evil, he felt satisfied when said it.

“C’mon Kaoru, we school in Senior High School only for boys!! And you’ll look for a girl in where? Our woman sensei?” Toshiya couldn’t handle his self to say that, make Kaoru more and more shock and pissed off.

“What??? Are you nuts?” Kaoru yells, couldn’t accept the third rule.

“Kao...it’s for two guitars, effect and amplifier...” Shinya’s expression eve not changes when he said that to Kaoru. Just eats his cake quietly.

It was true that this opportunity REALLY hard to be ignoring, but to make someone, a MAN, fall in love with him with that skirt makes Kaoru’s heart stop beating for a moment and thrown him from reality again. “And you couldn’t tell about this game...” Kyo’s voice becomes serious again. It was hard to Kaoru to go back to reality, but then he thinking about what he could’ve from that silly-stupid-game.

“You all only make me look like idiot...” Kaoru wrinkling his eyebrow, realize that how cruel they are. But they will give him something that he wants for a long time, that’s not cruel, anyways.

“It’s only game Kao...only one month and you could’ve that fucking guitar!!” Kaoru throw his gaze to the blonde head, aware that they wish the brown-haired boy agree with that game. ”but only one if you couldn’t make some ONE fall in live with you...” Kyo added with quotation mark in his fingers.

Kaoru takes a deep breath, ready to tell what his decision. How come he wears that skirt and makes someone fall in love with him only for get the god dammit guitars! Never mind... “This opportunity only once for a lifetime” Shinya speak slowly, Kaoru’s eyes stare at him beforehand.

“Take it or pass it...it’s your decision Kao...” Kyo said, the sounds look forcing, although he said it with gently.

The brown-haired man inhaled; close his eyes for a moment, “Alright... I accept this god dammit game...” he speaks slowly, almost desperate even. His gaze turns down to his glass.

“Really??” the others yell together couldn’t hide their surprising that Kaoru accepted they stupid-game-and-god-dammed-rules.

“You all want me deal with this game, right??” Kaoru little bit shock with the others reaction, the others nodded. “And I want that fucking guitars!!”

-

At 8 o’clock, they decided to go to home, walk side by side. After made a deal with Kaoru, they went home with satisfied. Even Toshiya couldn’t stop his laughs. They had this plan for a long time, since they all go up to third grade. When Toshiya told the others, he wants look Kaoru with a uniform school-girl, because he so cute with his long hair, plus his glasses in his face. Though Kaoru wasn’t wears his glasses everyday.

“You’re evil Totchi!” Kyo chuckled; remembered Kaoru decided to accept their game, stupid game if that mean!

“Cause I really want him to wear that cute skirt!! If we not give those guitars, he will refuse out of hand” the taller boy smirked to the blonde head.

“Me too...” Shinya replied quickly.

The small blonde looked at his friends from them left side, “err... both of you looks like maniac, if you guys understand what I mean...” Kyo made weird smile in his lips to the others.

-

“SHIT!!!!!” Kaoru immediately wake up from his sleep. This day, he will be late cause last night he couldn’t slept well, thinking about reaction whole of class, and don’t forget with his school when he wear that skirt. After took a bath for shower, the brown-haired boy quickly wearing his uniform to his thinly body. When he got his trousers, he stopped then throws it to the floor. “Shit! I must wear that skirt!!” he sighed, searching that skirt. And guess...when Kaoru wear it, though he put the skirt more lower in his hips, the skirt only covered for a half his thigh. “DAMMIT!!!”

-

“hmm...that guy not come, yet...”Toshiya whispered in his seat, right behind the blonde-head. Wordless, Kyo rolled his eyes to Kaoru’s seat, still empty. Step back is Shinya’s seat.

“perhaps he still confuse, how wearing that skirt...” a small joke and little bit cruel enough throw from Kyo’s mouth, make the other chuckled, and shut his mouth, not dare to laughs loudly in his class.

First lesson had started, it was English lesson. The red-haired man standing in front of class, he’s Andou-sensei. Explain his lesson to the students. Tall, thin, young and handsome for measure teacher, could be spelled out members too handsome and young. But there was no problem with him, his not bored sensei, what he teaches of also could be arrested either by all student, underline, all of they is a boy.

Kaoru’s seat still empty when the young sensei was explained almost a half from his lesson. Only his voice heard in that class. His student too busy with their business, felt sleepy and hungry. But for Kyo, Toshiya and Shinya, they mind thinking...where’s the hell Kaoru now!

A few times from outside class, vaguely hear footstep. Slow at the first and getting louder when it closer to them classroom. The footstep was stopped, and then the door sliding hardly. The brown-haired come in, “I’m so sorry, I was late!!” Kaoru yelled with irregular breath. Class become quietly.

No one speak when Kaoru comes. All eye concentrated to the brown-haired boy. Wearing uniform school with unbutton in topmost clasp, his tie not be attached natty, mini skirt showed his little-white-thigh, a long white sock and black shoes as usual. His black-long hair tied under his brown hair. Kaoru realize that he was become attention in his class, even his sensei. “err...I could explain it...” he said with blushing in his face.

-

“Shit!!! I’m feel pervert!!” Kaoru sighed at his friend when they have a lunch time. Kyo and Toshiya seat before him and Shinya in his left side.

“So you wearing that skirt Kao...” Kyo smirk widened, take mouthful rice in to his mouth with chopstick.

The brown-haired boy wrinkling his eyebrow, “this is for Ganesa!!” he yelled, full of intention. “I’ll finishing this game and get those guitars!!” Kaoru continue, hold his chopstick strongly in his hand. Meanwhile, Toshiya’s eyes not blinking when his gaze locked at the skirt, his chopstick still in his mouth. Kaoru knows it and yell at Toshiya, “What the hell are you looking at Totchi!!” Kaoru ask harshly with unpleasant voice.

“hmm...” the taller boy paused for thinking, “just want to know, what is it under your skirt...” he continue with innocent face. The blonde-haired boy chuckled, almost hiccough.

“Totchi you feel horny, don’t you??” Kyo teasing his friend winked his eyes and jogging the others with his right arm.

Toshiya grinned, his eyes rolled to Kaoru’s eyes, “am I...” Toshiya replied then laughs; make the other felt pissed off. Kaoru’s face burning in red light, ignoring the stupid answer and more interest eats his lunch than heard both of his friend joking about his skirt. Winked each others and threw silly jokes. “Just joking, okay?” His eyes rolled at Kaoru again, see his angry face.

“That’s not a good joke!!” Kaoru replied harshly.

“But I think you like...a hot chick...” Shinya started to speak, without averted his gaze from his bowl, leave surprised in their face. Kyo and Toshiya laughing again couldn’t hide their felt which tickles their stomach.

“Shinya you make it more worst...” Kaoru murmured and blushing. In first day Kaoru was felt desperate with this game. The point is, could he SURVIVE wearing that skirt for a month?

“I’m seriously KaoKao...”Shinya turned his eyes, stare at Kaoru,”I even want eat you...looks like you made from sugar and chocolate with extra passion...” There’s no change in Shinya’s expression, like he trying to tease the other. Kaoru more stressed till he buried his head on the table.

Kaoru lifted his head, “what the hell are you talking about Shinya???” Kaoru stare at Shinya which cruelly not even change his expression. Just a little jeer smile in his lips Kaoru have got from his low profile friend.

“hahaha, I agree with that!! KaoKao...you’re so cute!! I’m even thinking want lift your skirt!!” Toshiya couldn’t stop his laughs, either with Kyo who almost hiccough if he couldn’t have his drink quickly.

“Don’t tease me... you guys make me more desperate...” Kaoru complained with innocent face, make him cuter for his friends.

“Please forgive us KaoKao! Just only we were shock that you will so cute...” Kyo wiped his tears in his eye, his smile not fades away, yet when he looks at Kaoru.

“Aw, that’s so sweet Kyo...for now, we will call you KaoKao!!” Another sentence audible more likes a joke for the brown-haired boy, a cruel joke.

“Don’t call me like that!!!” Kaoru yelled, again his face blushing, more deep red.

-

This time Kaoru stood in front of his English sensei, averting his gaze to the floor, not dare to stare the other’s eyes. Die stopped his work; write some report in his desk. He lifts his head, his gaze search Kaoru’s eyes. “Want explaining why you wearing uniform like that?” the red-haired man speaking.

Kaoru felt confuse, what kind answer he will tell to his sensei. Remembered one the rule had Kyo gave to him. ‘Don’t even dare to tell this game to someone...’ The brown-head boy thinks some logical answer for his sensei’s question. Think. Think. A logical answer. “Because I’m feeling comfort wearing this skirt...” it was flows from Kaoru’s mouth, made him want to die, right now! He really felt pervert said that. A boy had to learn in school-boy suddenly wear...dressing exactly, like a girl only want make him self feel COMFORT?

“Comfort...” his sensei repeated. Kaoru nodded with extra blushing in his face.

“I...I could explain it Andou-sensei...”

“That was explained...” the red-haired man said. His gaze couldn’t avert from Kaoru, staring at his appearance, from his head to his shoes. Hold his little chuckled before burst up. The red-haired sensei couldn’t ignore that Kaoru more looks like a girl than a boy.

“I know it wasn’t...”

Die rolled his chair up at his desk and start to write something, “don’t be panic...you allowed to wearing that skirt anytime you want, anyways.” that sentence made Kaoru shock.

“a...allowed? How come?” his voice audible shocked with that sentence. How could his school allowed him to wear that skirt, even looks like a girl, if everyone assumed Kaoru was a girl with that skirt and his long hair.

“I thought you know who could do that, you know him...” his eyes still on his work.

“I guess Kyo...” Kaoru replied short. He knows that the small blonde’s father is the most big fund contributor in their school. The headmaster couldn’t accept what Kyo father wants, at least that one reason he could think in his head.

“Good if you understand...” the red-head man said. The other kept quiet, still didn’t understand what was happen. Were Kyo and the others so seriously with this game? Send a stupid plea to their headmaster? “But...your late still not allowed...” his sensei sentence returned Kaoru to the reality, again...

”I’m so sorry sensei... I promise never do it again!” Kaoru replied. Bow his body. His gaze not averted to the floor. Hide from guilty feeling.

Die made a huge smile in his lips, staring to his student, “I wish you could explaining more good reason than... feel comfort wearing that...” he paused, “you’re not trying to teasing your teachers... don’t you?” the red-haired man continue. There was a little joke in his sounds, but Kaoru assumed it was serious things.

Kaoru felt slap in his face, even his Sensei felt his self like a pervert, that was it what his thinking about, “that...I wasn’t...” even he couldn’t complete the sentence to help his self from that question. His face only deeper and deeper red; behind his bangs almost covered his face, feel shame.

Die chuckled, he covered his mouth with his palm, “just joke Niikura...” he said slowly, “you could back to your classroom and I hope the other sensei will not surprise like incident in this morning...” he continue and back to his job.

“Thank you...” Kaoru even not dare to look his sensei, just bowed his head and then leave from School Office.

Die still couldn’t down his tickles from his stomach. A shocked face mixed with confuse still could reminded in the red-head man. A cute boy with mini skirt and long hair. If he could describe Kaoru for that time. ”cute...” He whispered to his self with progressively wide smile in his lips.

-

In the way to go to home, Kaoru thinking... if this game has over and he could’ve his Ganesa Guitars, he will kill his friends, it’s mean Kyo, Toshiya and Shinya. If he deadly serious wants do that. Through the street he passes, many eyes following Kaoru, almost everyone. They only stare at Kaoru, wordless. Some of them chuckled, not dare to laugh in his face, bothered him. The brown-haired boy just buried his face into his cloak. It’s makes Kaoru want to recognize as a school-girl better that as a boy who looking someone for love, or sex. All day long, his face couldn’t stop blushing; though there’s no one look at him. It’s something he couldn’t extinguishing the light fire in his face.

‘GOD DAMMIT I’M FEEL SO PERVERT!!!!!!’

-

Notes extra :

1. Comment please!
2. And if there was WRONG in my sentence or grammar, PLEASE tell me and let me know how to correct that. I’ll really appreciate.
3. THANKS for reading!!!

kyo icon!!

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 07:54:58 GMT

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[24] kyo's icon

enjoy ne...

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Sun, 24 Jun 2007 08:11:55 GMT

Title : Despair in your love ? unsensored version -
Author : Shiro + Grotesque Death13 +
Pairing : guess who...
Rating : NC-17
Warning : yaoi,language, more hard,yeah...smut ^^;
Disclaimer : it's never happen, ever...

Note's : yaoi!!!viva yaoi!!!inih versi unsensored-nya yaw!!!ne...seperti pv saja --; daripada itu,mangap buat English-nya yang kacau,mo di basa indonesia-in teh...egh...

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Akhirnya konser hari ini selesai juga. Aku sangat suka jika konser sudah selesai,walaupun rasanya sangat mengagumkan berada di atas panggung.

"Die..." aku menoleh ke sumber suara,dan aku tau milik siapa itu."god job."katanya singkat sambil menepuk pundakku.

"kau juga Kao..."jawabku. aku lalu mengalihkan pandanganku pada vokalis kami,Kyo. "kau tidak apa Kyo?"tanyaku ketika melihat badan Kyo berdarah,yah hasil perbuatannya sendiri.

"iya..."Kyo terlihat menyentuh luka yang dia buat sendiri.

"harus cepat diobati,walaupun kau sering melakukannya,tetap saja membuatku khawatir..."aku mencoba menyentuh lukanya."pake alkohol pasti perih ya..."aku sedikit tertawa

"hoe,Die sangat memperhatikanku!!"sekarang dia berbicara dengan nada kekanak-kanakkan, membuatku tertawa lebih keras.

"anak dibawah umur dilarang jadi rock-star tau!!"seruku sambil mengacak-ngacak kepalanya

"fuck you Die!!I'm more than 20 years old!!!"

aku tertawa,"sana,bersihkan badanmu!!kita pulang bareng!!"ajakku

"seperti biasa ya Die,nasehatin adek kamu..."sekarang giliran bassis yang berbicara

"aku bukan adek-nya!!!ecamkan itu Totchi!!"

"hmm,mungkin dia benar..."aku memandang Kyo dengan tangan mengelus daguku sendiri,"adek kecilku yang kawai~~~"kataku menggoda Kyo

"Die,don't call me like that!!!pilih mana...dicincang,bunuh pake stand mic,bondage sampe kamu mati!!!"
"bondage ajah deh,ada nikmatnya sih..."jawabku
"hahahaha!!!dasar mesum!!!"sela Toshiya

rasanya...ada yang kurang,sepertinya suara orang itu tidak terdengar sama sekali...aku mencari di seluruh ruangan.Shinya memang sudah pulang duluan. Dan pandanganku terhenti ketika melihat sosoknya sedang tertidur di sofa.

"he looks hot,right Die?"orang disebelahku berbicara,aku memandang Toshiya dengan satu alis dinaikkan."kamu berpikir seperti itu juga'kan?kamu memang punya Kyo,tapi pikiranmu tidak bisa berbohong kalo Kaoru bisa terlihat seksi..."ia menyandarkan tangannya di bahuku.

"maksudmu apa Totchi?"aku secara halus membantah apa yang dia katakan,yah...walau tidak semuanya aku bantah.

"sudahlah Die...I know you want fuck him too..."

"Totchi,sekali lagi kamu ngomong gitu...satu gitar bakal melayang ke arahmu!!"

"idih gitu ajah marah!!!ngomong seperti itu kualat loh Die.I'm warning you..."setelah mengatakan itu,Toshiya beralu dari hadapanku. Aku memutuskan untuk berganti pakaian sambil menunggu Kyo kembali.

"belum pulang..."

aku mengalihkan pandanganku ke arah Kaoru yang sekarang duduk di sebelahku."nunggu Kyo.." jawabku lalu kembali membersihkan make up-ku.keadaan menjadi hening. Kaoru bangkit dari duduknya, sekarang dia mengganti bajunya,damn Toshiya...you right,he looks hot more hot if he naked,like now...maksudku,hanya bagian atas.aku mengalihkan pandanganku,atau lebih tepatnya pikiranku dengan menyalakan salem lights dan menghisapnya dalam-dalam.

"mau pulang bareng?"tanyaku,setidaknya tidak berdua...dengan Kyo.

Kaoru sedang memakai sepatunya,"lebih baik aku pulang sendiri."jawabnya

"lebih baik ramai-ramai..."

dia menatapku sambil tersenyum,salah satu bagian yang terbaik dari dirinya,"aku tidak ingin mengganggu kalian,lagipula...aku tidak merasa nyaman."dia lalu berdiri. Apa yang kau maksud barusan,tidak nyaman atas apa?

"oi,Kao...pulang bareng gak?"tanya Kyo ketika dia kembali.

"aku duluan saja,ada urusan..."jawab Kaoru.sesaat sebelum dia pergi,tatapan kami bertemu, apa yang dipikirkannya?dan perkataannya tadi membuatku sedikit bingung.

"ati-ati!!"seru Kyo.dia menghampiriku,"pulang sekarang?"tanyanya,aku mengangguk.

"ada apa?"tanyaku ketika Kyo memandangku.
"boleh menginap?"
"ngapain?"tanyaku,sedikit tidak berperasan mungkin...
"agh,Die...nada bicaramu ketus sekali!!"protesnya

aku tersenyum,"memangnya kamu masih kuat?"pertanyaan bodoh yang keluar dari mulutku begitu saja,"dah badan kecil,penuh luka pula..."ejekku

"Die!!!kau pikir aku siapa?!?!?!berkata seperti itu..."

aku berpikir,"kamu adekku..."jawabku sengaja dan aku bisa melihat wajahnya yang kesal,seperti anak kecil yang kehabisan permen.aku lalu merangkulnya,"begitu aja marah,kamu boleh nginep kapan pun yang kamu mau,hokey?"dan dia pun mengangguk.

Aku sudah punya Kyo...

*.......*

Dia tertidur di sana,di sofaku yang berwarna krem tua."Die..."panggilnya,aku menghampirinya. Damn he really looks hot and sexy!!dia mengenakan kemeja putih panjang dengan semua kancingnya terbuka.aku bisa melihat satu tangannya berada disebelah kepalanya dan yang satunya berada di atas kepalanya. Dia menurunkan satu tangan ke dada-nya lalu mengarahkan pada celana hitamnya yang sudah terbuka,aku bisa melihat boxer-nya...dan god-dammit!!dia memasukkan tangannya sendiri ke dalam celananya dan membuat erangan yang membuatku tidak bisa menahan tubuhku lagi.

Aku mendekatinya,menaiki sofa,satu kakiku berada di antara miliknya.tanganku memegang satu tangan yang berada di atas kepalanya dan satu lagi...kubiarkan mencari tangan yang satu-nya.

"fuck me..."bisiknya,suara yang terdengar lembut dan nyaman. Walau aku ingin menahannya, aku tidak bisa membohongi perasaan sendiri,aku menginginkannya,sangat menginginkannya dan aku tau...dia juga sangat menginginkanku.Hanya sekali ini saja, biarkan sekali ini saja aku memiliki dirinya...hanya untuk saat ini.

Nafasku terengah-engah,aku membuka mataku,merasakan keringat yang keluar dari badanku. Shit,apa yang barusan terjadi?aku melihat kesebelahku,Kyo sedang tertidur pulas. Aku menutupi wajahku dengan kedua tanganku,mencoba memikirkan apa yang baru saja terjadi.

Ada Kyo disebelahku,we have great moment dan...Aku baru saja memimpikan Kaoru!!! Fucking him too!!Dan rasanya seperti benar-benar terjadi!!bodohnya aku...aku sudah punya Kyo, untuk apa aku memimpikannya??

'Mungkin terpengaruh perkataan Totchi...'aku mengalihkan pikiranku.

Pagi yang dingin membangunkanku.Kyo masih terlihat nyenyak dengan tidurnya,jika sudah tertidur,cukup susah untuk membangunkannya. Aku bangkit dari tempat tidur lalu keluar kamar sambil menyalakan salem lights. Ketika aku menduduki sofa krem ini...mimpi itu terbayang lagi. Sial,aku tidak bisa menyangkal kalau Kaoru benar-benar terlihat seksi!!!

"ohayou..."

aku membalikkan badanku,melihat ke arah Kyo...dia memang terlihat seperti anak kecil,tapi aku tau apa yang ada di dalam tubuh yang kecilnya itu.sejuta energi yang bisa dia keluarkan kapan saja."kenapa Kyo?"tanyaku ketika wajahnya terihat lesu

"masih ngantuk..."

"tidur lagi saja..."usulku.

Kyo menyerengitkan heningnya sambil menatapku,"kau pikir sekarang hari apa?jika kita terlambat,leader angkuh itu akan ngomel-ngomel!!" Aku tertawa.yup,sekarang konser terakhir, Kaoru sangat serius jika berhubungan dengan konser dan dia tidak segan-segan melemparkan tatapannya yang sinis dan kejam.

*.......*

"ohayou..."kataku ketika masuk dressing room dan disana hanya ada Kaoru.

"yang lain belum datang?"tanya Kyo.
"belum..."
"sejak kapan disini?"sekarang Kyo duduk disebelahnya.

"dari pagi,rasanya tidurku tidak nyenyak..."jawab Kaoru. Aku memperhatikan kedua member itu dan sekarang... pandangku beralih pada-nya,orang yang ada dalam mimpiku tadi malam! "ada apa Die?"pertanyaan itu membuyarkan pikiranku.

"iiee..."aku lalu berjalan dan segera menaruh tas-ku di atas meja.

"ohayou!!"sapa Toshiya dan disusul dengan kedatangan Shinya
"apa aku terlambat?"tanya sang drummer
"tidak..."aku mengalihkan pandanganku lagi padanya.

"yosh,konser terakhir!!semangat!!semangat!!"seru Toshiya

konser terakhir berarti...bisa tidur sepuasnya tanpa harus dibangunkan oleh deringan telepon yang mengatakan kita harus check sound!!!

"kenapa bengong Die?"tanya Shinya
"egh...bengong??Cuma ngantuk."jawabku normal

"hmmm...I know what you did last night..."sekarang pandanganku beralih pada Toshiya.Tolong jangan katakan apa yang kau tau Toshiya."you fuck your little brother!!!"

"you bastard!!I'm not his brother!!"seru Kyo dan Toshiya hanya tertawa mendengar reaksi Kyo.

"...aku mo sarapan dulu..."Kaoru bangkit dari duduknya,aku sedikit heran dengan sikap-nya akhir-akhir ini...sangat pendiam,maksudku bukan dalam arti 'terlalu serius'

"Die...tidak baik menyakiti adik sendiri..."aku lalu memandang ke arah Shinya dengan tatapan bodoh.

"Shinya,apa maksud perkataanmu itu?!?!?!"keluhku dan dia hanya menahan tawanya.

Akhirnya aku memutuskan untuk sarapan juga. Aku melihat kaoru yang duduk sendiri dan memutuskan untuk mendekatinya."rasanya kita jarang bicara..."aku duduk disebelahnya.

Kaoru yang asik makan,mengalihkan pandangannya,"begitukah?aku tidak memperhatikannya..." dia kembali makan. Orang yang terkadang dingin,tapi...entah kenapa saat ini raut wajahnya terlihat letih."mungkin aku terlalu sibuk..."

"setelah konser ini,kau bisa istirahat sepuasnya..."kataku
"mungkin..."
"mungkin?apa maksudmu?"

Kaoru terdiam,"habis ini kita harus check sound..."itulah jawaban yang keluar dari mulutnya, membuatku semakin penasaran apa yang ada dibalik kata 'mungkin' itu."bagaimana hubunganmu dengan Kyo?"

Aku menghentikan makanku,segera melihat ke arahnya,"baik-baik saja..."jawabku berusaha normal. Kuperhatikan wajahnya terus-menerus,bayangan mimpi itu muncul kembali,"aku..."

"oi!!ikut gabung ya!!"Toshiya yang datang memotong apa yang akan aku ucapkan.dia duduk di depanku.

"mo mengatakan apa Die?"tanya Kaoru. Aku hanya menggelengkan kepala

"Kyo dan Shinya ke mana?"tanyaku

Toshiya sedang asik melahap sarapannya,"kau taulah kebiasaan mereka,nonton doraemon!!" jawaban itu membuat Kaoru sedikit tertawa.

"aku sudah selesai..."Kaoru bangkit,"duluan ya..."

"mo kemana buru-buru?"tanya Toshiya

"ke panggung,harus ada yang kuperiksa..."jawab kaoru sambil berlalu dan aku hanya memperhatikan kepergiannya.

"sejak kapan kau jadi memperhatikan dia?"kini pandanganku beralih kepada Toshiya

"apa maksudmu?"

Toshiya menatapku,"arti dari kata 'apa maksudmu' itu ada dua,satu...kamu memang tidak tau apa yang baru saja ku katakan.kedua...kamu ingin mengelak dari pertanyaan itu..."Toshiya mengarahkan sumpitnya padaku."don't be selfish Die...dari tadi pagi kamu memperhatikan leader itu.dan kamu...tidak bisa mengalihkan pandanganmu dari-nya!so,tell me what happen to you in last night,except you have fucked Kyo..."

"Totchi...kenapa kau bisa sangat tau akan keadaan yang terjadi?"Tanyaku heran

"hmm...hanya lebih banyak pengalaman mungkin..."

"pengalaman?"tanyaku heran,tapi akhirnya kuputuskan untuk tidak menanyakan apa-apa lagi, "lupakan saja apa ang aku tanyakan tadi..."aku lalu bangkit dan meninggalkan Toshiya.

"hanya ngin memberitaumu...kalo kau mulai suka pada Kaoru..."katanya dan aku menganggap perkataan itu hanya angin.

"...mungkin lampunya harus dikurangi sedikit di bagian ini..."

"{nande Kaoru?"tanya Kyo

"hanya memperbaiki yang kurang."jawabnya.mereka berdua akhirnya hanya melihat ke arah panggung. "kelihatannya...tadi malam kalian bersenang-senang dulu..."

"begitulah..."jawab Kyo."sebenarnya tadi malam ada urusan apa?"

Kaoru terdiam,"betsuni...aku tidak ingin menganggu kalian..."

"Kaoru!!check sound-nya mo dimulai sekarang?!?!"seru Shinya

"ya!!!"jawab Kaoru,"ayo Kyo..."ajak kaoru. Dia dan Kyo pun segera lekas ke atas panggung. Aku yang datang beberapa saat kemudian segera mengambil gitar dan memasangnya,Toshiya sudah berada di tempatnya. Untuk beberapa saat aku melihat ke arah Kyo dan...pada seorang lagi... lebih lama...

*.......*

"hwaa,senangnya!!!"itu reaksi Toshiya ketika kami telah menyelesaikan konser malam ini."ugh, Kaoru!!!betapa senangnya aku!!!"dia menggoncangkan pundaknya

"tau,tau...mulai besok kamu bisa libur sepuasnya..."terlihat senyuman di wajahnya. Mungkin dia juga senang bisa tidur sepuasnya,seperti aku ini.

"yup,karena itu..."dammit!Toshiya...untuk apa kau mencium Kaoru segala,di depan kami bertiga!!! and,yeah...Kaoru feed back that kiss...

"ano..."hanya itu yang dikatakan Shinya,ketika mereka belum menghentikan ciuman itu. Shinya mungkin ingin menghentikannya,tapi..dia lebih baik diam.aku mengarahkan pandanganku ke arah Kyo,agh!!that little warumono has sleep!!!

"tolong kalian berdua hentikan ini,ada orang yang tidak tahan melihatnya!kalo mau lakukan di tempat lain!!"aku memisahkan kepala mereka.Shinya ragu menghentikan mereka...hanya itu.

"kenapa Die?"Toshiya tersenyum,merasa menang apa yang dilakukannya."you're jealous..."
"I'm not.Shinya yang melihat kalian sedikit ketakutan..."aku menunjuk Shinya
"Totchi!!liat tempat!!"akhirnya dia berbicara

"aku ganti baju dulu..."hanya itu yang dikatakan sang leader!!that's it Kaoru?!?!

"gomen!!entah kenapa rasanya ingin melakukan hal itu!"dia tersenyum lagi,"the point is...to proof something Die..."Toshiya berlalu sambil menepuk bahuku."jaa...minna!!!"dan akhirnya pergi dari dress room.

"apa yang Totchi katakan?membuktikan apa Die?"tanya Shinya.aku hanya menggeleng saja.

Aku mengalihkan pandanganku pada Kyo,lagi-lagi tubuhya penuh luka."hinya,bisa ambilkan alkohol dan perban..."pintaku

"untuk Kyo?"anyanya,aku mengangguk."akan ku ambilkan..."Shinya berlalu dari ruangan.

tak lama kemudian Shinya datang,"ini..."dia memberiku sebotol alkohol dan perban.

"domou..."jawabku

"kau bisa mengurusnya'kan?"tanya Shinya

"rindu Miyu..."kataku sambil tersenyum,dia mengangguk."aku sudah biasa menanganinya..." jawabku.

"kalau begitu,aku duluan...jaa..."dia menepuk bahuku
"hati-hati..."

aku memberi sedikit alkohol pada perban itu dan membersihkan luka di badan Kyo."itai!!!!"dia terbangun.

"he?gomen!!!"
"ngapain sih?"tanyanya
"bersihin lukamu..."jawabku
"kenapa tiba-tiba?aku'kan belum siap!!"keluhnya
aku tersenyum,"sekarang sudah siap'kan..."
"pelan-pelan...walau dah biasa,tetap saja perih..."keluh Kyo
"iya,iya...ngerti dede kecil..."
"Die!!"serunya dan aku hanya tertawa.

"belum pulang Kao?"tanya Kyo ketika Kaoru kembali ke dress room.

"belum...aku ingin istrahat dulu,daripada entar nabrak pas nyetir..."dia lalu duduk di sebelah Kyo. "tidak apa'kan kalo aku di sini?"

"tentu saja!!"jawab Kyo.aku hanya meneruskan membersihkan lukanya,"agh,hati-hati!!"seru Kyo

"berisik amat sih!!suruh siapa coba cakar-cakar badan sendiri!!"omelku dan dengan sengaja dia menjitakku.

Aku melihat ke arah Kaoru,dia terlihat tenang dengan tidurnya,apa kami mengganggu?"Die..."Kyo memanggilku.

"nani?"tanyaku

"mungkin untuk beberapa saat kita tidak bertemu dulu..."aku terkejut mendengar perkataan itu.

"what's wrong with you?"tanyaku,aku berharap Kaoru tidak mendengarnya

"tidak ada.aku hanya ingin bermalas-malas ria di tempatku..."

"lalu untuk apa kau mengatakan hal itu?"tanyaku

"hmmm..."dia berpikir,"ingin mengetahui reaksimu..."jawaban yang sangat simpel,tapi...aku tau maksud dari perkataannya...apa aku masih memperhatikannya?atau lebih tepatnya...apa aku masih menyukainya?

"dasar!!kupikir kau mau ke mana??bikin orang jantungan aja!!"

"nanti aku ke tempatmu sekali-kali deh..."

"setiap hari pun boleh!!"jawabku sambil menatap wajah Kyo,wajahnya sedikit memerah sebelum dia mendekatkan wajahnya dan mencium bibirku.Untuk saat ini aku tidak menginginkan Kaoru melihatnya,tapi...kenapa??

*.......*

hari ini aku memutuskan untuk bermalas-malas ria,ditambah udara yang dingin...saat yang pas untuk menenggelamkan diriku di dalam selimut.Selama liburan ini,mungkin aku tidak bertemu dengan yang lain,mereka sibuk akan kemalasannya masing-masing.Shinya pasti pulang kampung,ketemu Miyu,apa bagusnya coba anjing itu??kalau Kyo,mungkin akan datang,entah kapan.Toshiya...untuk sekarang ini aku tidak mau bertemu dengannya!!dan Kaoru...entahlah, dia tipe orang yang susah ditebak,bisa datang kapan saja...

'TINGTONG!'

aku terbangun!!!kumohon jangan orang yang kusebutkan paling terakhir!!!aku segera memakai kaos-ku dan langsung menuju pintu.Jantungku rasanya berdebar-debar,menebak siapa yang ada di balik pintu ini.aku menarik nafas, berusaha untuk tenang lalu membuka pintunya.

"ohayou..."sapanya.agh,rasanya aku mau pingsan!!

"pagi Kyo...kukira siapa..."jawabku sambil menghela nafas

"memangnya kau pikir siapa?"kyo langsung masuk setelah kupersilakan."kau tidak memikirkan seseorang'kan?" tanyanya,dia tidak membalikkan badannya.aku terdiam."bukan orang itu'kan..."

"nani?"tanyaku ketika kata yang terakhir tidak jelas kudengar

"iiee...!!"terlihat senyuman ketika membalikkan badannya yang lebih kecil dariku."hari ini aku putuskan bermalas-malasan di tempat Die!!"itulah yang dikatakannya.

"padahal kemaren kamu bilang tidak ingin bertemu dulu..."dia hanya tersenyum ketika aku berkata seperti itu.

"miss you so much..."Kyo memelukku,sangat erat.
"kau terlihat manja sekali!!"aku lalu mengelus kepalanya

"hug,me...please..."pintanya,walaupun terasa aneh bagi seorang Kyo,aku memeluknya.mencium rambutnya yang pirang.

Malam itu Kyo memutuskan untuk pulang."jaa..."katanya sambil melambaikan tangannya.

"yakin tidak mau menginap?"tanyaku,dia menggeleng kepalanya."kapan-kapan saja...hari ini cukup menyenangkan." jawabnya

"kalau ada apa-apa hubungi aku,ya..."dia mengangguk dan berlalu dari hadapanku.

Tak berapa lama,hujan turun.aku benci hujan!!suaranya seperti sedang mengadili seseorang. Mungkin Kyo sudah tiba di apartemennya,agh...diafkan pake mobil.

'TINGTONG!!' sekali lagi bel berbunyi.untuk apa Kyo datang lagi,mana hujan pula!aku lalu menuju pintu.

"Kao..."aku terkejut ketika melihat sosok-nya,ditambah badannya yang basah kuyup dan...raut wajahnya yang terlihat sedih,"ayo masuk..."ajakku.

Kaoru berjalan didepanku,punggungnya terlihat rapuh dan yang terpenting...untuk apa saat ini dia datang ke tempatku? "daijoubu..."tanyaku,dia mengangguk."aku ambilkan handuk dan baju ganti..."aku masuk ke kamarku, mebawa handuk dan beberapa pakaian untuk dipakainya. aku berdiri di hadapan Kaoru,"ini..."kataku,Kaoru tidak mengambilnya,dia tetap diam dan menundukkan kepalanya,"Kao..."panggilku,tetap tidak ada jawaban."kau akan sakit..."

suasana menjadi hening,hanya terdengar suara hujan dan sesekali petir.pandanganku masih terpaku pada Kaoru, ada apa dengannya sampai tidak berbicara sedikit pun?apa yang terjadi dengannya??

"biar aku yang mengganti pakaianmu!!"akhirnya aku terpaksa melakukan itu,daripada keadaannya kebih buruk lagi. Aku mulai membuka jaketnya,"ada yang ingin kau katakan?" tanyaku. Sial,kenapa aku harus mengganti pakaiannya??speak to me!!!speak to me Kaoru!!!

Aku mengeringkan badannya...dia tetap tidak bicara.aku kesal!kenapa dia tidak bereaksi?? kenapa tidak berbicara!!!aku akan mendengarnya!!kumohon Kaoru bicara!!! "Kao,ada apa denganmu?kenapa dari tadi hanya diam??aku bingung!!"aku mengeraskan suaraku sambil memegang kedua bahunya...Kaoru tetap terdiam.

"Kao!!"seruku.ketika aku mengguncang badannya lebih keras,entah bagaimana,aku tidak bisa menjaga keseimbanganku, tiba-tiba Kaoru sudah menimpaku.apa dia pingsan???

"kao..."panggilku sambil melihat kepalanya,dia tidak bergerak.membuatku makin penasaran, "kumohon...apa yang terjadi padamu?jika kau seperti ini terus,aku tidak bisa membantumu."

Hening,tetapi Kaoru mulai mengangkat kepalanya lalu menatapku. Aku merasakan sesuatu yang berbeda dari tatapannya yang sekarang,bukan kesedihan,lebih tepatnya...

"fuck me...Die..."samar-samar kudengar

"kau bilang apa Kao!!!"memastikan

"fuck me..."dia mendekatkan wajahnya padaku.perkataannya membuatku terkejut!!dari tadi dia tidak berbicara apa-apa dan ketika dia mulai berbicara,hanya kata itu yang kudapat.

Aku berusaha bangkit,"aku tidak mengerti ucapanmu!!untuk apa kau meminta itu???"Kaoru menundukkan kepalanya lagi,"dan sekarang kau terdiam lagi..."keluhku."kau kesini tidak untuk meminta itu'kan??"

"just...want see...you..."suaranya terdengar lemah."karena ada Kyo...aku memutuskan untuk menunggunya pulang..."

"what a stupid reason!!!why you do that?!I don't understaind!!karena ada Kyo,kau tidak jadi ke tempatku!!"

'BRAK!' aku terdorong kebelakang,terjatuh kembali ke sofa.

"kumohon...jangan bicara lagi..."suatu perkataan yang tidak kumengerti sama sekali!!

"Kao...jangan lakukan!!"pintaku ketika dia mendekatkan wajahnya.

"aku tau Die...kau menginginkanku...sangat menginginkanku..."dia mulai mencium bibirku

aku menjauhkan wajahku,"apa yang bisa membuatmu seyakin itu!!aku sudah punya Kyo!!"

"don't be a liar Die...kau sendiri tidak akan menyangkal hal itu...I really want you...that's why I come here..."aku terdiam ketika Kaoru mulai mencium leherku.

"Kao..."

"Kyo tidak akan tau..."aku bisa merasakan nafasnya ditelingaku,membuat jantungku berdetak lebih cepat."so...fuck me Die..."

aku menginginkannya!!itu yang kurasakan sekarang,saat ini aku tidak peduli akan hal lain,hanya ingin memiliki-nya."I'll do it..."jawabku.

Kaoru mulai menciumku,perlahan memasukkan lidahnya di mulutku.Lidah kami saling terpaut. He presses his lips,feel his tastes in my mouth."want continue..."he ask. Gods!!!am I dreaming?

"yeah,please..."jawabku. Kaoru membuka bajuku,dammit,his really have sensual touch,though it's only take off my clothes!!!

Dia memindahkan bibirnya ke leherku,menciumnya dan sesekali menjilatnya.meneruskannya... lebih rendah, menuju tulang belikatku,menggigitnya...I made some moan.Now he founds my nipple and suck it, I grasp his head tightly and feel more passion.

"more,,,"
"nande?"dia bertanya sambil menatapku
"nothing...just fuck me,okey!"

Kaoru terdiam lalu tersenyum,"aku pikir...seharusnya aku yang mengatakan itu..."senyuman menghiasi wajahnya sekarang.

Wajahku memerah,"...sekarang itu tidak masalah lagi,karena aku menginginkanmu juga"

Kaoru menundukkan kepalanya sambil tersenyum,tangannya perlahan bergerak menuruni perutku lalu menurunkan resleting celanaku."ini bagian sensitif-mu Die?"dia bertanya

"mungkin..."jawabku,"harus kau buktikan..."usulku,usul yang bodoh.

"aahh...that's great..."aku mengerang ketika Kaoru menyentuhnya.
"should I taste it?"he ask
"go ahead..."
"no...but I think I will give you more than that..."

aku merasakan nafasnya di tengkukku,sekarang aku seorang uke,yah...itu yang kupikirkan. Kaoru mendominasi,bukankah dia yang meminta duluan,fuck with that!!!

"kau siap Die..."dia bertanya.untuk apa menanyakan hal itu,hhanya tidak ingin menyakitimu...h lanjutnya

"just do it,please..."

"baiklah...kau yang meminta..."Kaoru berbisik dengan lembut di telingaku,membuat sensasi kecil. Tangannya yang terasa kurus bergerak dari tengkuk menuju pinggangku.and when he pull his cock to mine,fuck!!feels like in heaven.

"aah...that's gods...*heavy breath*fuck again Kao...!"

"I'm doing...*gasp*just hold on..."Kaoru moaning softly in my ear.he pulled again,more harder,"are you okay Die?"he murmured,I can fell his lips in my ear.

"I'm fine...I think...it's more close..."kedua tanganku menggenggam bantalan sofa.

"yeah...*gasp*"licking my ear,"I will move on..."I can feel when it will be a perfect moment.when you wanting the high sensation,you'll get it. Kaoru tightening his grip on my hips,lick my back and focusing on his 'job'.

"it's feel...good...*breathing* more than orgasm...!!!"I'm groaning,"fucking gods!!"
"di saat seperti ini...kau...masih bisa bercanda..."suaranya yang terengah-engah membuat ini semakin baik.

"itu bukan lelucon..."aku masih bisa merasakan sensasi yang kurasakan dari dalam tubuhku. harus kuakui...dia lebih hebat dari Kyo...apa aku baru saja memikirkan Kyo?

"ng...Die..."dia mendesah di leherku dan beberapa saat kemudian menimpa tubuhku.aku lalu membalikkan badanku.

"kau lelah?"tanyaku,kedengarannya sedikit bodoh untuk menanyakan hal itu

"kurasa..."jawabnya,dia menidurkan kepalanya di dadaku dan aku mengelus-elus rambutnya yang terasa basah karena keringatnya."terima kasih..."

untuk apa?"tanyaku bingung

"karena mau melakukan ini..."suaranya semakin pelan

aku sedikit terdiam...yah,melakukan apa yang seharusnya tidak kulakukan. Mungkin ini terdengar bodoh,tapi...saat melakukan itu semua...rasanya seperti alunan eUndecidedf...ketika kami sedang berduet,terdengar lembut dan penuh sensasi.

"oyasumi..."aku mencium rambutnya.sepertinya aku juga lelah.

*....... *

Pagi terasa dingin...aku lupa kalau kami melakukannya di sofa,seperti mimpi yang kualami dan sekarang benar-benar terjadi.aku terbangun...melihat ke arah Kaoru yang masih tidur,aku memutuskan untuk tidak membangunkannya. Kuraih pakaianku dan memakainya lagi, pandanganku tertuju pada Kaoru...harus kuakui kalo semua perkataan Toshiya benar, sepertinya ini sebuah karma.

Jam 10...sudah agak siang.Sebatang salem lights ku nyalakan,duduk di sofa yang satunya, sambil memandang Kaoru yang tertidur,so kawaii...

'BIP!BIP!BIP!' handphone-ku berbunyi,terlihat nama Kyo di layarnya,membuatku sedikit terkejut

"moshi-moshi?"kataku berusaha normal,aku lalu pergi ke arah jendela,berharap Kaoru tidak terbangun

"DIE!!!ohayou!!!!"suaranya terdengar gembira

"nani?"aku membalikkan badanku,Kaoru sudah terbangun,"kau terlihat senang sekali..."aku masih memandang Kaoru yang sedang memakai pakaiannya,tanpa bicara satu patah katapun

"hanya ingin menyapa!!!"

"dasar aneh..."aku melihat Kaoru mengambil jaketnya lalu segera pergi dari hadapanku, membuatku erkejut."Kyo,sudah dulu,ya!!!masakanku gosong nih!!!nanti kutelepon lagi!!"entah kenapa aku berkata seperti itu dan ketika aku menutup telepon,dia sudah pergi...

"Die!!!Die!!!kenapa ditutup??"

setelah memakai kaos,aku segera menyusul Kaoru.waktu kutelepon handphone-nya tidak tersambung,mungkin dia sedang di lift,membuatku terpaksa menuruni tangga. Kenapa dengan orang itu??sama sekali tidak berpamitan!!!membuat orang stress saja.aku meneleponnya lagi... bagus,tersambung!!!

"moshi-moshi..."

"bodoh!!!kenapa pergi begitu saja???tanpa pamitan dulu padaku!!!"bentakku sambil terengah-engah karena menuruni tangga."kau sedang di mana??"tanyaku

"kau seharusnya memakai lift,lebih menghemat tenaga..."

"Kao!!!jangan berkata seperti itu!!!"akhirnya aku keluar dari gedung apartemenku dan langsung mencari Kaoru sekeliling,"tiba-tiba datang dan sekarang kau pergi begitu saja..."aku mengatur nafasku.

"tarik nafas dulu..."

"jangan berbicara seperti itu,seakan tidak terjadi apa-apa!!!"sekarang aku merasa sangat marah. aku menyebrangi jalan,mencari Kaoru lagi...

"tadi malam,memang bukan apa-apa..."dia benar-benar membuatku kesal

"kau datang ke tempatku hanya untuk melakukan hal itu,kau bilang bukan apa-apa?!?! Lalu kenapa kau sangat menginginkannya???kenapa kau tidak datang ke Totchi,Shinya atau Kyo sendiri,kenapa Kao!!!"aku benar-benar minta penjelasan dari dirinya

"aku hanya ingin membeli es krim..."itulah jawaban yang keluar dari Kaoru,membuatku terbengong,tapi...suaranya terdengar dekat sekali."aku hanya ingin es krim cokelat di pagi hari..." aku membalikkan badanku dan menemukannya sedang berdiri dengan es krim cokelatnya. Aku menutup handphone,berlari ke arahnya dan memeluknya sangat erat,seperti aku belum pernah memeluknya seperti ini.

"aku menyukaimu..."kataku sambil menenggelamkan kepalaku

"suka dalam arti apa?suka seperti aku sangat menyukai cokelat...atau suka seperti kau mencintai Kyo..." perumpaan yang bagus yang dikatakannya...untuk yang terakhir kenapa harus Kyo?

"I love you Kao...it's that clear for you..."aku masih memeluknya

"sangat jelas..."Kaoru menenggelamkan wajahnya di pundakku.saat-saat yang indah."I love you too..."dia menjawab.mungkin... tidak,aku ganti kata itu!rasanya aku mematahkan hati seseorang, aku tau siapa orang itu. hanya saja,aku belum berani mengatakan padanya,saat ini... bagaimana pun juga caranya... aku tidak ingin melepaskan Kaoru,ini hanya bukan untuk sekali ini saja...ini untuk selama mungkin berada disampingnya.

"kenapa tiba-tiba ingin es krim..."

"karena mereka sangat enak,rasanya bisa mendapatkan suatu sensasi jika memakannya... es krim itu membahagiakan..."bibirnya membentuk senyuman yang lembut.

"kau bisa menjadi es krim buatku..."suatu perkataan yang aku harap bisa membuatnya lebih tenang

"really?and...how about him?"pertanyaan itu membuatku terkejut

aku tersenyum kecut,kenapa disaat seperti ini Kaoru harus berbicara tentang Kyo,"mungkin...dia es krim dengan rasa yang berbeda,tapi...waktu aku merasakan es krim ini..."aku memandang kaoru,"aku tau aku sangat menginginkannya dan akan menghabiskannya..." sesaat perkataan itu membuatnya tersenyum,the perfect smile.

"mmm,Die..."
"nani?"tanyaku

"lain kali...aku ingin menjadi uke..."wajahnya memerah ketika mengatakan itu,membuatku sedikit tertawa."jangan tertawakan aku!!"

*.......*

setelah hari itu,aku dan Kaoru sering bertemu,kebanyakan dia yang datang ketempatku. Kyo juga jarang ke tempatku,aku tidak mengkhawatirkannya,dia sudah bilang tidak akan bertemu dulu,jadi kuanggap seperti itu.

"boleh bertanya...?"aku memandang Kaoru yang tertidur di pangkuanku sambil memainkan rambutnya.

"nani?"

"malam itu...kenapa kau terlihat sangat sedih?"sekarang Kaoru membuka matanya,dia lalu bangun.

"seharusnya kau mengerti...rasa sakit'kan..."jawabnya

aku tersenyum,"you're jealous..."kataku,wajah Kaoru memerah,"aku suka wajahmu kalau seperti itu."dan itu membuatnya semakin memerah.

*.......*

hari ini,aku memutuskan ke tempat Kaoru.sebelumnya tadi malam Kyo menelepon,menanyakan kenapa aku menutup teleponnya?bukankah aku sudah memberikan jawaban karena masakanku gosong...walau keadaannya tidak seperti itu. dan dia berkata akan bermalas-malasan di apartemnenya dulu.terdengar seperti berita bagus bukan?

*.......*

"hai..."sapaku ketika Kaoru membuka pintu
"ayo masuk..."

aku dan Kaoru masih menyembunyikan hubungan ini,terutama dari Kyo.lebih baik seperti ini dulu, sebelum kami kembali lagi untuk latihan atau membuat lagu baru.

"sudah lama tidak ke tempatmu..."aku lalu duduk di sofanya

"seharusnya kau lebih sering kesini...mo minum apa?"

"hmm...aku ingin meminummu..."jawabku sambil tersenyum.Kaoru tertawa kecil,dia berjalan mendekatiku dan memberikanku sebuah ciuman yang manis. "cokelat..."kataku,merasakan sedikit rasa cokelat di mulutnya.

"aku baru meminumnya."jawab Kaoru disela ciuman itu,rasanya aku tidak ingin menghentikannya.

"bisa buatkan untukku..."

Kaoru tersenyum,"tentu saja,persedianku banyak!"Kaoru menuju dapurnya dan aku mulai menyalakan TV,mencari sesuatu yang menarik.

"ini..."Kaoru membawakan secangkir cokelat hangat dan beberapa kue manis.

"sejak kapan kau suka makan kue seperti ini?"tanyaku heran

"aku butuh gula..."Kaoru menjatuhkan dirinya di sebelahku dan aku melingkarkan tanganku ke pundaknya. "Die..."panggilnya,aku hanya memberikan jawaban 'hm' padanya."bagaimana... dengan Kyo?"pertanyaan itu muncul dari mulut Kaoru lagi.

Aku memandang Kaoru dan dia juga memandangku.aku segera mencium bibirnya,tangan kiriku menggapai lehernya."feels like chocolate,huh?"kataku

"lebih manis..."jawab Kaoru

*.......*

"Die!!!kamu di dalam??ini Kyo!!" tidak ada jawaban dariku."Die!!!kau ada di rumah???"
Kyo lalu menghubungi handphone-ku,"angkat...kumohon angkat Die..."tidak tersambung

"mungkin dia sebentar lagi pulang...lebih baik kutungu saja..."

*.......*

aku bisa merasakan leher Kaoru yang lembut,tanganku mulai menjelajahi tubuhnya.

"Die...*gasp*"

"nande?"Tanyaku sambil memandang wajahnya yang mulai memerah.

"tempat tidur...aku rasa sofa bukan tempat yang nyaman..."jawabnya.

"tentu saja."jawabku.Kaoru bangun lalu menarik tanganku,mengajakku ke kamarnya.

"come here..."dia menarik Kaosku dan menjatuhkanku di tempat tidur.Kaoru menaikkan kakinya diantara kakiku.Aku memegang kedua bahu Kaoru dan menariknya,lalu membalikkan posisiku.
"aku pikir kau uke-nya..."kataku

Dia berpikir,"tidak masalah..."jawabnya sambil tersenyum

"hmm...maukah kau membuka pakaianku?aku sangat senang jika kau menyentuhku..."pintaku, membuatnya menahan tawa."jangan tertawa!!"keluhku

"seperti ini..."Kaoru memasukkan tangannya ke balik kaosku,menyentuhnya di dadaku.

"...feels nice..."jawabku.perlahan dia mulai membuka pakaianku,memberikan sentuhan artistik di setiap tempat yang dijangkaunya dan aku melakukan hal yang sama padanya.

Aku mulai merasakan bibir Kaoru di mulutku,memasukkan lidahku perlahan kedalam miliknya. Start to suck it,"more Die..."Kaoru mengerang ketika aku menggigit bibirnya.he's mine. Our tongues in Kaoru's mouth,dancing and fighting,mix each other. Now my lips kiss his neck and licking it. Kaoru moaning, his sound looks good. More lower to his chest. Kaoru memegang kepalaku dengan tangannya, feel more sensation when I'm suck his nipple.

"harder...*breath* Die..."
"seems you like it Kao..."
"shut up!just do it...okay!!"

aku tersenyum,"aku baru memulainya..."kataku,"just relax...I'll coming..." I place my hand in Kaoru's flesh,touch slowly with my fingers,"ng...that's great...*gasp*..."Kaoru breathing.

"I should taste it..."I start licking his cock,making slow movement with my tongue.

"please...*pants*...dont stop!!"Kaoru places his hands in my head. taking his cock into my mouth, more deeper into my throat.still suck it until I need an air."nande?"he ask

I stare at him,looks tired or in high."just taking a breath..."he makes a grin in his lips."let's doing fucking crazy!!"

"ne...fucking crazy??"wajahnya terlihat kebingungan,kawaii ne...

"balikkan saja badanmu..."kataku sambil menahan tawa melihat ekspresi Kaoru yang tadi.

"unn...sepertinya aku mengerti..."mendengar itu aku malah tertawa,dia membalikkan wajahnya,"Die...jangan tertawa!!"serunya

"hahaha...gomen!!kau harus sering-sering berekspresi seperti tadi..."pintaku,"aku hanya ingin kau santai sedikit..."

"ready...?"I ask
"what kind question of that??"

"make sure you will getting hurt...well,here I come..."I slowly pushes myself inside Kaoru,wanna hurt himself.

"aah...*moaning*like that Die..."

"I'm...coming Kao!"It's more harder and I pull it almost all the way out.I think it will be hurt...

"fucking...*heavy breath*...yes!"hmmm...not yet,I think...I press my lips to his hip,lick it,hear his moaning...we're almost in Climax."harder... Die..."

"now you want more..."just a little jokes to make himself relax.Kaoru nods,"okay...gonna move on..."I pulled it again and then thrust back into him."Kao...*pants*...feels gods!"

"ah...it's...close Die..."tightly his arms to pillow.
"ne...why...it's feel tightly...?"
"jangan...*gasp* berdebat denganku...di saat seperti ini..."
"I'm...trying!"

And it's began to thrust harder and faster into Kaoru's body,"So...close ne..."I'm breathing in his neck,I put my head in his shoulder and focusing to what I've doing. now,we felt in orgasm...

"Die...it's getting hurts!!"
"just...a minute..."still pulled into his body
"It hurts a lot Die!!"Kaoru groaning.
"I'm going pull back..."

"AAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!"sounds like screaming,but I like that...feels want more.
"I want...*breath*you...Kao...!"
"....*gasp for breath*..."
"love it...Kao...?"

Kaoru didnit answer,only hear his breath."are you...okay,Kao?"seems nice if I ask that question. And I think,I must pull out myself.

"daijoubu ka?"aku melihat Kaoru yang masih membenamkan wajahnya di bantal.

"that's fucking crazy!"jawabnya sambil tersenyum kearahku.aku membalas senyumnya dan memberikan ciuman yang lembut di bibirnya.

"kau perlu istirahat,sepertinya besok akan sangat sakit..."aku mencoba menyeka keringat yang ada di heningnya.dia menangguk..saat Kaoru memejamkan matanya,ada perasaan yang mengganjalku,aku lalu bangun dan memakai celanaku.

"nande Die?"Kaoru terbangun.

Aku melihat ke arahnya,"hanya ingin mengecek handphone-ku,tadi kumatikan..."Kaoru sedikit tersenyum mendengar itu,"kau tidak ingin hal seperti itu ada yang mengganggu bukan?!"

Aku mengambil handphone dijaketku dan begitu dinyalakan...

'YOU HAVE 30 MESSAGE'

"30?banyak amat?kamu lagi bisnis??"tanya Kaoru,aku menggelengkan kepalaku sambil melihat ke arahnya.aku lalu membuka pesan itu satu per satu dan membacanya...

Kyo : 'Die kamu ada di rumah?'

Kyo : 'kamu lagi di mana?aku ada di depan tempatmu...'

Kyo : 'sekarang ada di mana?'

Kyo : 'miss you Die...'

"dari siapa saja?"suara Kaoru membuyarkan kekagetanku dan aku masih kaget kalo semua pesan itu dari Kyo.

Kyo : 'ekapan pulang?'

Kyo : 'kenapa tidak menghubungiku...'

Kyo : 'aku menunggumu...'

Rasanya pikiranku kacau,apa daritadi Kyo berusaha menghubungiku? Kenapa dia tidak bilang akan datang?kenapa perasaanku tidak enak...apa dia masih menungguku di apartemen?tidak mungkin!!!tapi...Kyo orang yang nekat...

"wajahmu terlihat pucat Die..."aku mengalihkan pandanganku pada Kaoru,"dari siapa?"tanyanya lagi.aku lalu memakai semua pakaianku."mau kemana???"tanya Kaoru.

Aku mendekatinya,langsung menciumnya,"aku harus pulang..."kataku

"pulang...untuk apa?dari siapa pesan itu?"

aku menelan ludahku sendiri,"Kyo..."jawabku pelan,Kaoru melingkarkan tangannya ke leherku, "jangan pergi... kumohon...di sini saja..."pintanya

"ada yang mengganggu pikiranku Kao..."
"kenapa?"tanyanya

aku memandang wajahnya,"I love you...aku tau in bukan saat yang tepat,tapi...aku ingin memastikan...Kyo orang yang nekat,kau tau itu'kan..."aku berusaha menenangkan Kaoru. Rasanya sangat kejam,meninggalkan Kaoru begitu saja setelah kami melewati saat yang hebat.

"aku mohon...tetaplah disini..."

"aku ingin tetap disisimu selama mungkin Kao,tapi...aku juga mengkhawatirkan Kyo,"jika dia tidak ada di sana...aku akan kembali untukmu!!aku berjanji!!"aku lalu meninggalakan Kaoru.

"Die!!!Die!!"ingin rasanya memelukmu saat ini,hanya saja...tidak bisa...

*......*

aku masuk ke lift,menekan angka dimana apartemenku berada.aku berharap Kyo sudah pulang... aku berharap dia tidak menungguku!!!semoga dia sedang tertidur di tempatnya!!!

Pintu lift terbuka...

jantungku seakan berhenti...dia masih di sana,tertidur sambil bersandar pada pintu apartemen. Kyo masih menungguku...

"Kyo!!!"aku mengguncangkan badannya,"bangun Kyo!!!"sekarang aku benar-benar khawatir padanya.

Perlahan Kyo membuka matanya,"itu kamu...Die..."suaranya terdengar lemah

"sejak kapan kau disini????"
Kyo masih belum sepenuhnya sadar,"kukira jam 2 siang..."jawabnya.aku shock...dan ini sudah lewat dari jam 10 malam.

"untuk apa kau menungguku????"

Kyo memandang wajahku,tersenyum manis,"tentu saja bertemu denganmu...aku pikir,ini kejutan yang bagus..." jawaban yang sangat sederhana,membuatku sangat merasa bersalah.aku memeluk Kyo sangat erat, merasakan tubuhnya yang kecil.

Apa yang kulakukan pada Kyo?

*......*

"dia masih menunggu-nya..."Kaoru menenggelamkan dirinya dalam selimut

*......*

"sudah agak baikan?"tanyaku.Kyo mengangguk sambil meminum teh hangatnya,aku duduk di sampingnya, memperhatikan Kyo...aku sadar,selama ini aku tenggelam di dalam Kaoru,sampai melupakan orang yang berada di sampingku saat ini.

"kau...habis darimana?"pertanyaan itu membuatku shock,aku harus menemukan jawaban yang tepat untuk pertanyaan itu.

"ada urusan..."jawabku

Kyo melihat ke arah gelas yang dipegangnya,"urusan yang tidak ingin kau katakan padaku..." Damn,aku benar-benar bersalah pada Kyo!!!pada Kaoru juga,karena harus meninggalkannya dalam keadaan seperti itu.pikiranku saat ini sedang kacau..."yang terpenting...kau sudah disini"

Kata-kata Kyo menghantamku dengan keras,dimana aku selama ini?bersama Kaoru!!hanya ada Kaoru dan Kaoru!! "kau tidak marah..."tanyaku

Kyo memandangku lagi,"coz...I love you...you know that..."
"yes...of course I know about that..."aku mengelus kepalanya sambil tersenyum.
Rasanya yang kulakukan saat ini salah...

"aku ingin instirahat Kyo..."aku bangkit dari dudukku dan menuju kamarku.

"sepertinya...urusan-mu itu membuatmu lelah..."aku menghentikan langkahku lalu melihat ke arah Kyo,"begitulah..."jawabku lalu kembali masuk kamar.

Aku menjatukan tubuhku ke kasur,rasa nyaman dan bersalah bercampur ketika aku menutup mataku. Aku membuka mataku,ketika Kyo sudah berada di atasku,"ada apa?"tanyaku

"menginginkanmu..."aku bisa merasakan dari cara Kyo memandangku.

"aku lelah Kyo..."
"kau tidak pernah menolak sebelumnya"Kyo mencium leherku.
"sekarang aku menolak..."

Kyo mengangkat kepalanya,memandangku sangat dalam."aku merasakan sesuatu Die..."tiba-tiba dia berbicara.

"merasakan apa?"tanyaku

"harusnya kau lebih tau itu...rasanya beberapa hari ini kau hilang entah kemana..."
"aku selalu berada di sini..."jawabku
"hari ini tidak..."

aku terdiam,memejamkan mataku sebentar,lalu membukanya,"baiklah Kyo...lakukan sesukamu.."walau badanku rasanya benar-benar lelah.

"sepertinya kau tidak sungguh-sungguh mengatakan itu..."

tanganku mengelus pipi Kyo,"you are Die's little warumono,right?"tanyaku,Kyo menggangguk.

*.......*

dan itu...terjadi lagi...

"Kyo...*breath*...bisa kita hentikan sekarang...?"saat ini badanku benar-benar lelah.
"just...relax...Die..."Kyo pulled it in to my body,faster and harder.

"KYOOO!!!!"aku berteriak
"so...*heavy breath*...close..."
"aku tidak...bisa...menahannya...lagi..."pintaku
"sebentar...lagi Die..."
"now...please..."

ketika Kyo menariknya...tubuhku roboh,rasanya suhu tubuhku sangat panas dan aku tidak bisa menahannya lagi."Die...daijoubu?"aku bisa merasakan suara Kyo di telingaku.

"aku...rasa...tidak..."jawabku.
"kau...demam..."kata Kyo ketika tangannya memegang heningku."badanmu panas sekali..."
"benarkah..."perlahan-lahan kesadaranku mulai menghilang dan akhirnya pingsan.

*.......*

demam...aku terlalu memaksakan tubuhku tadi malam,harusnya aku tidak menerima ajakkan Kyo, tapi karena rasa bersalahku padanya,aku memaksakannya.

"sudah sadar..."aku melihat Kyo ketika aku membuka mataku

"rasanya...tidak nyaman sekali..."kataku ketika merasakan suhu tubuhku.

"hmmm...40 derajat,suhu macam apa itu!"candaan Kyo membuatku sedikit tertawa,"tak kusangka, hanya karena itu saja kau bisa demam begini?"Kyo mengganti kain yang ada di kepalaku.

"well...I'm human Kyo..."jawabku,Kyo sedikit tertawa.
"hari ini aku akan merawatmu!!"
"ne...mendengar ...suaramu seperti itu...aku jadi takut..."ejekku
"orang sakit tidur saja!!jangan banyak mengeluh!!"protesnya

Kyo sudah kembali seperti biasa lagi,tapi aku masih mengkhawatirnya orang yang satu-nya lagi, yang kutinggalkan begitu saja tadi malam.

"ne?ada yang datang!!aku liat dulu..."Kyo lalu meningalkan kamarku. Siapa yang datang?? Berpikir Kaoru yang datang,aku rasa tidak mungkin...dia pasti merasa kesal karena kutinggalkan, Toshiya...atau Shinya??

"Die..Kaoru datang..."perkataan Kyo membuat jantungku berdetak lebih kencang,nafasku seakan terhenti ketika melihat Kaoru datang ke tempatku.

"hai...Die..."katanya
"dia datang untuk mengembalikkan video-mu!"kata Kyo
"video?"aku mengarahkan pandanganku pada Kaoru,seakan tidak percaya Kaoru datang.

"akan kuletakkan di mejamu..."Kaoru menghampiri mejaku dan menaruh video yang dipinjamnya, bahkan aku tidak ingat dia pernah meminjamnya."sekalian menjengukmu...kau demam?"suara Kaoru terdengar biasa-biasa saja.

"i...iya..."jawabku masih dalam keadaan bingung

"kebetulan sekali,ya..."kata Kaoru sambil tersenyum.

"Kao...mau membantuku merawatnya?"sekarang pandanganku beralih pada Kyo.apa yang kaupikirkan Kyo??cukup kau seorang'kan!!walau aku merasa senang,Kaoru ke sini,tapi...

"tentu saja..."jawab Kaoru.sial!kenapa ini harus terjadi???seharusnya kau tidak datang Kaoru!! Kupikir kau akan marah karena kutinggal!!karena aku memilih untuk menemui Kyo!!!

"baguslah!!kebetulan aku harus membeli bahan makanan,kulihat tidak ada sesuatu untuk bisa dimakan oleh orang sakit. Sekalian kembali ke tempatku sebentar...tolong,jaga Die dulu,ya..."

"tentu. Dia sahabatku..."jawab Kaoru. Sahabat...satu kata yang benar-benar menusuk.

"kalo begitu aku pergi dulu...jaa..."Kyo berlalu dari hadapan kami. Hanya ada aku dan Kaoru.

"dia...benar-benar menunggumu..."Kaoru mengalihkan pandangannya padaku ketika dia memastikan Kyo sudah pergi.

"begitulah..."jawabku

Kaoru berjalan mendekatiku,berdiri di sebelah tempat tidurku."tadi malam kau baik-baik saja..."

"hanya kelelahan..."suasana menjadi hening.aku tidak tau harus mengatakan apa pada Kaoru. Apa dia marah?apa dia kesal?kenapa dia datang kemari?

"...sakit sekali waktu kamu kembali untuk Kyo..."akhirnya Kaoru berbicara tentang hal itu. dia lalu duduk di tepi tempat tidur,di sampingku.aku hanya bisa melihat punggungnya.

"kau marah?"tanyaku

Kaoru membalikkan badannya,"aku mencintaimu Die...rasa marah bukan sesuatu yang baik untuk ditunjukkan disaat seperti ini,justru akan memperburuk keadaan yang ada bukan..."

Aku terdiam,memikirkan perkataan Kaoru,"terima kasih..."yah,kata itu lebih baik daripada harus mengatakan maafkan aku...

"Die..."suaranya yang lembut,terdengar nyaman di telingaku.sekarang Kaoru menghadap ke arahku,"kau bilang sangat menyukai sentuhanku..."kau menyelipkan tangannya ke dalam selimut. "bagaimana dengan ini...?"

"Kao...apa yang...kau lakukan?"tanyaku ketika,dia menyentuh milikku dengan tangannya.
"hanya ingin membuatmu merasa nyaman..."Kaoru tersenyum.
"kau membuat wajahku...semakin panas..."
"Die-chan yang lucu..."dia berkata dan tersenyum lebih lebar,rasanya wajahku akan terbakar oleh senyumnya itu.

*.......*

"Kao...kumohon berhenti...Kyo akan kembali..."pintaku,ketika perasaan yang kurasakan sekarang benar-benar tidak karuan,antara sakit dan posisi di mana aku bisa merasakan orgasm,hanya oleh sentuhan orang ini.

"kau sangat menikmatinya..."dia tersenyum,lalu mencium tepat di bibirku.

"aku...sakit Kao..."berusaha mengatur nafasku
"dan aku hanya ingin membuatmu baik..."
"yang seperti ini...aahhh...membuatku...baik..."fuck!aku pikir dia melakukannya dengan baik.
"orang sakit harus banyak mengeluarkan keringat..."

'BRAK!!!'

di sana aku melihat Kyo,wajahnya benar-benar menunjukkan ekspresi kemarahan."Kyo!!"seruku

"gKyo,akan kujelaskan!!!"kataku,tapi...sepertinya dia tidak mendengarnya.

Kyo memandang Kaoru,"kau keterlaluan Kao!!!"
"aku memang menyukai-nya...maksudku,mencintainya,apa salahku..."Kaoru terlihat santai berbicara seperti itu
"selama ini kalian menyembunyikannya dariku!!!dari dulu aku sudah merasa aneh dengan sikapmu Die!!"

"Kyo,tenang dulu!!!"
"aku harus tenang seperti apa lagi????sampai kalian selelsai melakukannya!!!!"setelah meneriaki itu Kyo pergi.

"Kyo tunggu!!!"aku bangkit dari tempat tidurku dan segera berlari menyusul Kyo,walaupun badanku masih terasa lemah,walaupun...aku meninggalkan Kaoru lagi.

*.......*

sial!!!lagi-lagi kau harus menuruni tangga untuk mengejar orang yang kusukai!!apa ini karma??

"kau sangat senang sekali menuruni tangga Die...dulu kau mengejarku dan sekarang..."Kaoru tersenyum, "harusnya kau pakai lift yang satu-nya lagi..."dia lalu memasuki lift yang satunya.

Aku masih mengejar Kyo,dengan tenaga terakhirku,"KYO!!!!"teriakku,dia masih berlari."aku mohon Kyo!!!!"dan sekarang...aku mati-matian mendapatkannya lagi.

"jangan kejar aku!!!!"seru Kyo

"Kyo!!!!dengarkan aku...."

'BRUK!!!!'aku terjatuh,badanku sudah kupaksa sampai keluar batas."Kyo..."erangku

Kyo membalikkan badannya,melihatku sudah terjatuh."Die!!!!"dia menghampiriku."kau itu sedang sakit!!kenapa mengejarku!!!"Kyo memarahiku. "Kau menyukai Kaoru'kan!!!kalian...tega sekali menyembunyikannya dariku...."suara Kyo sedikit melemah.

"Kyo..."

"sudah Die!!aku tidak perlu mendengarkan alasan apa pun lagi!!itu semuanya sudah jelas!!"

"Kyo..."aku berusaha meraih wajahnya,tapi dia menjauh.

"aku tidak mau mendengar apapun lagi..."Kyo benar-benar marah padaku,ini semua memang kesalahan yang aku perbuat sendiri.aku tidak bisa memaafkan diriku lagi.

"hanya tidak ingin melepaskanmu..."kataku.aku berharap perkataanku bisa membuat Kyo sedikit memikirkan kembali apa yang ingin kujelaskan...

"aku akan mengantarkanmu..."hanya itu yang kudengar dari mulut Kyo

*.......*

ketika aku sampai di tempatku...Kaoru sudah pergi,mungkin dia marah padaku,aku sudah meninggalkannya dua kali. Kyo juga tidak berbicara lagi,walau aku berusaha mengajaknya bicara.

"Kyo..."panggilku,ketika dia mau meninggalkanku.

Kyo tidak membalikkan badannya,"kita...benar-benar tidak bertemu dulu Die..."setelah mengatakan itu,Kyo pergi.

Sekarang...semua orang yang kusayangi pergi dari hadapanku,karena kesalahanku sendiri, kebodohanku sendiri...aku terlalu serakah untuk mendapatkan mereka berdua. Di saat aku akan mendapatkan mereka...saat itulah aku benar-benar kehilangan mereka.

Aku mencoba untuk menelepon Kaoru.

"Kao..."
"nani?"suaranya terdengar dingin
"gomen ne..."suaraku terdengar pelan
"sebaiknya...kita tidak bertemu dulu..."sekali lagi aku terguncang,karena perkataannya,sama seperti Kyo.

Kaoru menutup teleponnya.

Di saat aku membutuhkannya...atau seseorang lagi untuk berada disampingku,mereka memutuskan untuk tidak bertemu denganku.wajahku kembali panas,bukan karena demam ini..panas karena menahan air mataku yang sekarang ini keluar begitu saja,merasakan sakit yang lebih perih lagi,lebih sakit lagi.

Sekarang...aku menyakiti dua orang yang kusayangi, bukan satu orang lagi.

*.......*

aku tidak pernah bertemu mereka lagi,setelah kejadian itu.berulang kali aku menghubungi Kyo, dia hanya berkata ini sudah berakhir dan berulang kali aku ketempatnya,dia tidak ingin menemuiku. Hal yang sama yang terjadi pada Kaoru,tapi...saat ini bagiku Kaoru benar-benar tidak ingin bertemu denganku. Jika aku menghubungi handphone-nya,tidak pernah tersambung dan ke tempatnya pun...tidak pernah ada tanggapan dari dirinya.seperti...dia menghilang dari dunia ini.

"moshi-moshi!!!"terdengar suara Toshiya di telingaku
"Totchi..."kataku pelan
"nande Die?sepertinya kau lagi murung??"aku benci orang ini,kenapa dia selalu bisa tau keadaan seseorang mulai dari nada bicara dan sikapnya.

Walau begitu,saat ini aku tidak ingin berdebat tentang hal itu,"apa Kaoru pernah ke tempatmu?" to the point.

"well...sepertinya apa yang kukatakan dulu benar-benar terjadi padamu!!"aku bisa merasakan tawa kemenangan Toshiya di telingaku.
"aku sedang tidak ingin berdebat hal itu Totchi..."pintaku
"baiklah!!kalau boleh kukatakan...You love him and it's mean you fucked him too!and...hmmm... how about Kyo?ne...you can't choose both of them..."
"shut up Totchi!!!damn,you likes god who always know what happen in this world!!!"
"correctly Die...not this world,but...you..."

"baiklah!!apa yang semua kau katakan benar!!Kaoru memang terlihat seksi!!aku mencintainya!! want fucking him!!and...now I really want him!!!in my side!!!!"emosiku naik hanya gara-gara aku ingin mengetahui di mana orang itu berada!!!

"relax Die,aku tau itu akan terjadi,sayangnya...setelah konser itu berakhir,aku belum pernah bertemu dengannya..." mendengar jawaban itu aku langsung menutup telepon,"fucking bastard!! Seenaknya memutuskan telepon!!"

*.......*

sekarang aku berdiri di depan apartement Kyo,mencoba untuk bertemu dengannya."Kyo!!"sudah berkali-kali menekan bel,dia tidak mau membukakannya.akhirnya aku menyerah dan terpaksa berbicara walaupun aku tidak yakin Kyo mau mendengarnya.

"Kyo!!"kataku lebih keras,"gomen ne...semua ini salahku!aku mengerti jika kau tidak akan memaafkanku!!maaf telah menyembunyikan ini darimu!!aku masih menyukaimu Kyo!!" mataku menjadi panas karena hal yang akan kukatakan selanjutnya,"...maaf,tidak bisa mencintaimu lagi!" dan sekarang benar-benar keluar."sampai jumpa!!"aku membalikkan badanku dan mulai meninggalkan apartemen Kyo,aku tau dia mendengarnya,aku tau...

"DIE!!!!!"panggilan itu membuatku berbalik,melihat Kyo yang sudah menangis,"please,love me again...don't like me Die...say you love me,I will forgive you..."

aku menundukkan wajahku sebentar,menghapus air mata yang telah keluar,lalu tersenyum pada Kyo,"aku selalu menyukaimu Kyo..."

"Die!!jangan lakukan itu!!!"
"aku sudah membuat keputusan Kyo..."

'BAKK!!!'Kyo memukul wajahku sampai aku tersungkur, "you fucking bullshit!!!!"teriaknya.aku bangkit sambil menyeka darah di bibirku,"pergi dari sini!!!!"

aku memandangi Kyo,"arigatou..."jawabku lalu meninggalkan Kyo.

"Die...please..."

aku tidak menghentikan langkahku dan terus berjalan,"Die!!"aku bisa mendengarkan teriakkannya.

Dan...suara itu tidak terdengar lagi ketika aku memasuki lift.aku tersandar pada lift dan menjatuhkan badanku, menutupi wajahku dengan kedua lenganku...menangis.terasa sakit ketika Kyo memukulku...aku pantas mendapatkannya,karena telah menyia-nyiakan Kyo. Orang yang selalu kusukai dan kusayangi...

*.......*

aku menghubungi handphone Kaoru lagi...tidak tersambung.

"ne...Shinya,apa kau pernah bertemu Kao?"harapan terakhirku...menelepon Shinya,mungkin dia tau di mana Kaoru berada.

"tidak,lagipula untuk apa Kaoru datang jauh-jauh menemuiku?memangnya ada apa Die?"

"sepertinya...dia sedang menghilang,tidak tau harus kemana lagi mencarinya..."suaraku terdengar lesu.
"kau sudah menanyakan-nya pada yang lain?"
"sudah..."jawabku
"hmmm...mungkin Kaoru melakukan hal yang tidak biasanya dia lakukan..."aku sedikit bingung akan pernyataan Shinya.
"maksudmu Shinya?"

"biasanya kalau libur seperti ini dia selalu di tempatnya'kan,main gitar,window shopping atau apalah...dan sekarang dia memutuskan untuk melakukan yang lain,pulang ke rumahnya,berlibur entah ke mana,atau yang seperti kamu bilang,menghilang entah ke mana...pikiran Kaoru memang susah ditebak..."

"kedengarannya seperti menyakinkan..."kataku
"hmm...hanya itu yang bisa kukatakan Die..."
"aku harus mencoba mencarinya lagi..."

"ne,Die...kenapa kamu sangat ingin mencarinya?"pertanyaannya membuatku terdiam.
"karena aku mencintainya Shin..."jawabku terus terang,aku tau Shinya akan menanyakan tentang Kyo,"Kyo sudah kuberitau...dan dia masih marah akan hal itu..."kataku

"apa yang membuatmu meninggalkan Kyo?setauku dulu kau sangat menyukainya?"sepertinya hari ini Shinya sedang banyak bicara.

"aku sendiri tidak tau Shin,mungkin...karena dari dulu aku menyukainya...bukan mencintainya..." jawabku.

"kompleks."hanya itu tangapan Shinya

"ternyata berbicara denganmu lebih enak daripada dengan Totchi..."

"well,Totchi kadang selalu tau apa yang sedang terjadi bukan!"aku tertawa mendengar shinya membenarkan juga, "Die..."panggilnya,"carilah Kaoru di tempat yang mungkin pikiranmu sendiri tidak menduganya,dan setelah bertemu...aku harap itu bukan hanya rasa suka saja. Kyo juga akan mengerti...walaupun aku tidak tau kapan itu."

"terima kasih Shin.aku benar-benar terbantu..." aku lalu menutup telepon Shinya dan langsung memikirkan tempat yang Kaoru datangi di saat seperti ini."apa mungkin dia ke sana..."aku memikirkan suatu tempat.

"carilah Kaoru di tempat yang mungkin pikiranmu sendiri tidak menduganya..."

aku bangkit dari dudukku,mengambil jaketku lalu segera pergi dari apartemenku.

*.......*

"memangnya dia ke sini..."kataku ketika berdiri di sebuah rumah dengan halaman yang rindang.terlihat satu pohon maple,di belakang rumahnya,pohon kesukaan Kaoru.

"Daisuke..."aku melihat seorang wanita di depan halaman,sedang merawat bunga-bunganya.

"konichiwa Niikura-san...anda masih mengingat saya..."

"tentu saja,kau teman dekatnya Kaoru!sudah lama tidak bertemu...mau menemui-nya?"aku terkejut ketika dia berkata 'menemui-nya'.

"Kaoru di sini?"tanyaku tidak percaya
"ke sini mencari Kaoru'kan?dia memang sudah lama tidak pulang,beberapa hari yang lalu tiba-tiba dia pulang dengan raut wajah yang sedih,kurasa dia sedang ada masalah..."
"sedih?"Tanyaku
"iya,seperti itu...wajahnya sangat mengkhawatirkan,tetapi keesokan harinya dia kembali seperti semula...dan mulai melakukan hobinya,window shopping dan lainnya.waktu menanyakan kenapa dia pulang,dia hanya menjawab ingin bertemu kami...aku ini ibunya dan tau apa yang sebenarnya terjadi..."aku mendengarkan betul apa yang dikatakan Niikura-san kepadaku.

"masuklah..."ajaknya,aku pun masuk ke dalam rumah yang sudah lama tidak kudatangi juga, sepertinya tidak ada yang berubah dari rumah itu,walau ada beberapa barang yang berubah. "Daisuke datang untuk menjemputnya?" tanya Niikura-san

"begitulah..."jawabku

"mungkin kalau dengan Daisuke,Kaoru bisa menceritakan masalahnya...setidaknya itu yang sering kalian lakukan dulu..." iya...aku hampir lupa kalau dulu Kaoru sering menceritakan masalahnya padaku.

"saya harus pergi dulu...jika ingin bertemu Kaoru,dia di kamarnya,Daisuke pasti tau mana kamarnya bukan."aku menggangguk,"mungkin masih tidur,tapi...bangunkan saja,ini sudah siang!"

"saya mengerti..."jawabku dan Niikura-san pun pergi meninggalkanku.

*.......*

aku tidak menyangka Kaoru akan ke rumahnya,sama seperti yang Shinya katakan.aku menaiki tangga,mencari kamar Kaoru yang tidak pernah kulupakan.

Hampir tidak ada yang berubah dari kamar itu,hanya lebih berantakan,action figure dimana-mana, dia benar-benar melakukan hobinya dengan window shopping.

Aku melihatnya...tertidur seperti anak kecil.aku merindukannya,ada perasaan lega ketika melihat dirinya. Aku mendekati Kaoru,berdiri di sebelah tempat tidurnya.memandangnya sangat dalam. Kugerakkan tangan kananku,membelai heningnya.sentuhan itu membuat Kaoru terbangun.

"Die..."nadanya terlihat terkejut
"I found you..."kataku sambil tersenyum

Kaoru bangun,"kenapa kau ke sini dan bagaimana bisa kau menemukanku?"dia benar-benar terkejut

"insting...sebenarnya Shinya memberiku sedikit clue...aku mencarimu Kao..."aku memandangnya dengan sendu."I miss you...thinking of you,everyday likes a hell when I can't see your face, hear your voice, miss your touched..."

Kaoru terdiam,"and Kyo..."
"I broke him...only for you...aku pernah bilang'kan... aku sangat menginginkannya dan akan menghabiskannya es krim ini..."aku membuat senyuman di bibirku,berharap Kaoru akan menerimaku dengan perkataan itu.

"apa kau yakin aku akan kembali?" aku shock,hanya memandangnya.untuk sejenak keadaan menjadi hening, sampai akhirnya aku memutuskan untuk bicara,"seperti kau yakin saat aku benar-benar menginginkanmu..." jawabku.

Kaoru tertawa,"tidak ada yang lucu!!"seruku,Kaoru masih tertawa dan akhirnya kubungkam mulutnya dengan punyaku.kiss him deeply,"please,I need you..."aku berbisik di antara ciuman itu.

"kau selalu meninggalkanku untuk Kyo..."
"dan sekarang aku meninggalkan Kyo untukmu..."aku segera memotong perkataan Kaoru. Pandangan kami bertemu,aku tau Kaoru masih menginginkanku,aku bisa melihat di dalam matanya."I love you..."

Kaoru terdiam beberapa saat sebelum dia membentuk sebuah senyuman di bibirnya,"I love you too..."jawabnya.aku mencium bibirnya,tangan kiriku meraih rahangnya,membelainya dan perlahan menuruni lehernya,lalu ke dadanya.

"ne...want fuck me senseless?"

aku mengerutkan heningku,"senseless??are you sure..."Kaoru mengangguk,"lebih baik kita ke tempatku saja,lebih leluasa daripada di sini.kau tidak ingin ada yang memergoki kita'kan?"

"alright,Die...just want tell you...I'm barely naked now..."
"naked?what are you doing?"
"sleep..."

aku tertawa,"hei,tadi malam itu udaranya panas!"Kaoru menjelaskan.
"iya,iya!!!"jawabku lalu berhenti tertawa,"how about...fuck you softly and sweety?"
"hell ya,like chocolate!!"
"yeah...if you mean like that..."
"well,go ahead!"suara Kaoru terdengar seperti anak kecil yang menginginkan sebatang cokelat.

Hari itu...aku mendapatkannya kembali,perasaan yang selama ini kuinginkan.aku tau Kyo akan membenciku,entah sampai kapan,tapi...aku sudah memilikinya,memiliki es krim yang kuinginkan, yang tidak ingin kubagi dengan orang lain. Sampai saat ini...aku tidak tau kenapa sangat menginginkan Kaoru.hanya satu alasan untuk itu...aku mencintainya bukan menyukainya.

*...owari...*

That's all you must know!!!wanna see Die fucking Kaoru senseless???sorry...that's private, nyehehehe!!!!

Wallpapers only!!!

Wed, 30 May 2007 04:45:33 GMT

subject :
[9] Dir en Grey
[2] Kei from Sadie

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enjoy nee..

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My lovely multiply's background!!!! >33< yay,Kaoru looks HOT!!!

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Kei - 'Sadie'
I love Kei!!!!!He so cute...and just a little bit like Shinya


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*click in size do you want*

more icon!!!!

Thu, 24 May 2007 07:26:37 GMT

ICONS only!!!
subject :
[42] Dir en Grey
[6] Sadie
[5] Gazette

Dir en Grey's Icon:

Sadie's Icon:

Gazette's Icon :

diru wallpapers!!!

Mon, 07 May 2007 04:14:48 GMT

here's some new wallpapers that I have made,but the picture not new...hmm I think I like make Diru's wallpaper with their old pic...hehehe...so,I hope you enjoy my wallpapers!!

hmm...sorry,for Shinya and Toshiya, I will make them as soon as possible...XP

yay!!finally I can made kaoru*again*,shinya and totchi walppapers too!!!XDD here's!!I hope you like them too



and this is my multiply backgroud...agh,more black and red!!!!XDDD

random icons!!!

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 09:24:27 GMT

For this few days, I feel guilty because my stupid post!!! So I made these icons as request of forgiveness to everyone ^^; *what a stupid reason* now I’m realizing, how stupid I to ask ‘that’ question…hmmm…I’m feel like a ‘bad fans’. Well…I’m only human being with selfishness in myself, its look like childish huh… I promise that it never happen again… so, forgive me everybody!!!! Hontou ni gomenasai minna-san!!!! *bowing*

p.s. : sorry for my LJ, I'll trying to fix my LJ ^^;

7 icons for each member, well as I know number 7 is lucky number ^^; ~~but...Shinya, sorry you only have 6 icon!! >___<~~ well Shinya,finally you have 7 icos too...I hope you like them…

hmm...I change icon Toshiya no.5

Die's icons

Kaoru's icons

Kyo's icons

Shinya's icons

Toshiya's icons

banner or bar...

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 05:38:22 GMT

Yes, banner or…yeah whatever!!!! Lately I very exited to made some banner and icon, mostly Kaoru >____< coz I LOVE THAT LEADER-SAMA!!!! And Die too…He looks more sexy and hot now*nosebleed* >33< and Kyo…you still looks kawaii!!! *yeah Kyo will kick me if He hears that*

But…OMG!!!!! I have no idea to make some fan fiction!!!!! Kami-sama no fanfic help me!!! Sorry for everyone in my multiply who love my fanfic… T^T 本当にごめなさい！！ My fucking brain not works…

Well, I hope you enjoy my banners which it’s look simple… *no comment for my bad English, I’m still learning*

this is banner in my multiply >33< I love this banner!!!

icon!!!!!

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 05:50:11 GMT

here's some icon I made...hmmm I hope you like my icon.
ugh,I really-really bored this week!!!!so I made some icon and one Kaoru's banner...maybe sometime I will make some a new wallpaper, icon and banner...

Kaoru looks hot and sexy >____< I LOVE KAORU!!!!!

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